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The Sandsesâ cottage has a cheerful exterior and there are marigolds growing in the window boxes. It almost looks like one of those houses on a postcard, with a big American flag waving out front, suggesting that good, solid citizens live here. The front door is open, so I knock on the side of the screen door, but thereâs no response. I can hear the TV on in the background so Iâm pretty sure Mrs. Sands is home. But when I knock again, more loudly this time, still no answer.
âHello?â I call out.
Nothing.
âItâs Grace Manning,â I say. I wait for another minute. âHello?â When I donât get a response, suddenly Iâm a little worried, so I open the screen door and walk in. The entry that leads to the main living room area is dark, but there are pictures of Mr. and Mrs. Sands on the front table. I bend forward to get a better look, and I see a picture of Mrs. Sands, with a ridiculously high hairdo, a sleeveless blouse, capri pants, and Keds sitting on top of a llama and smiling widely, as if sheâs completely aware of how ridiculous she looks but is having so much fun, she doesnât care. Next to it, thereâs a photo of Mr. and Mrs. Sands standing in front of some incredibly ornate temple, the kind I always picture when I think of Thailandâprobably because Iâve seen images like this on the front of the local Thai restaurantâs takeout menu. On the other side of that, thereâs a picture of a little boy who looks about five years old, standing in seersucker short pants and a little bow tie with a pained expression on his face. Heâs dressed like itâs the 1920s or something, but from the digital date stamp on the side, you can tell that it was only taken eleven years ago, making the kid about my age.
When I look up, my eyes having finally adjusted to the darkness, I see a figure sitting on the couch in the living room, staring blankly in the direction of the television.
âMrs. Sands?â I walk toward her.
At this, she finally turns and looks at me. She smiles slightly, but itâs more one of those dazed who are you and what the hell are you doing in my living room ? kind of expressions. Iâm wondering the same thing myself.
âHi,â I say, wanting to follow up with âAnd bye!â
âOh. Hello,â she replies in a tone that suggests sheâs not sure who I am.
âGrace.â I point to myself and nod.
âYes.â Mrs. Sands nods her head. âI recall.â She quickly brushes her index fingers under her eyes, then drops her hands back to her sides. Itâs the same gesture I use when Iâm watching a stupid movieâor worse, a sappy commercialâthat makes my eyes leak. Especially if Iâm with Eric and I donât want him to see that Iâm crying, I try to make it look like Iâm just adjusting any eyeliner thatâs smearing down my face. But when another fat teardrop drips off Mrs. Sandsâs eyelash, she just shakes her head, realizing itâs no use. âForgive me.â She puts both hands in front of her eyes. âIâve never understood those people who say a good cry can make you feel better. Crying just makes me feel worse.â She shakes her head. âAnd itâll prematurely wrinkle your eyes, so you should be careful.â
âIâll try.â
âThese days, I canât seem to help myself, though,â she says, as if chastising herself. I look to the wall clock and try to figure how long I need to spend here before I can flee. Mrs. Sands wipes her nose and looks back to me. âIâve started carrying extra tissues wherever I go. I practically have a whole tissue box shoved up my sleeve.â She waves her wrist in the air and there is a bulge right under her cuff. âAt least when I used to shove tissues in my shirt, Iâd distribute them to better places.â She points to her chest, and I