Free Meant to Be Yours: New Adult BBW College Romance (Derek and Jaike Book 2) by Marian Tee Page A

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    “What other reason?” she echoed incredulously. “Are you serious? We...we…we did that last night and the next thing I know, you’re breaking up with me. Of course it’s going to make me think all you wanted was that and now that you have it, you…”  
    The whole time she had been talking, Derek had stared at her in disbelief. When she choked off, he demanded, “Are you stupid?”
    She snapped back, “Are you stupid? Why would you even think that I’d want us to break up because of how much you wanted me last night?”
    “Because it’s not normal,” he gritted out. “It was your first time and I couldn’t stop myself. I wanted to fuck you again and again because I was jealous. And even seeing you asleep and tired, I still wanted to fuck you. I wanted to hear you say over and over that you’re mine!” He looked at her bitterly. “Now you tell me that’s not twisted and fucked up.”
    Her eyes looking straight into his, she said softly, “It is twisted and fucked up.”
    His head bowed, the pain of her words taking him completely by surprise. But he had asked for that, hadn’t he?  
    When she started to speak again, his body tensed, preparing itself for far greater pain, for a final rejection.
    “Even if it is like that, Derek, what made you think I didn’t want it?”
    His head shot up, and that was when he saw the smile wobbling on her delicate lips. It told him what he had never really allowed himself to think in certain terms.
    Jaike was the one he had been waiting for all his life.
    “I’ve always known I was different.” Derek’s gaze captured Jaike’s as he started to tell her about his childhood. “By the time I was sixteen, I became restless and I fucked any and every girl who came my way.”
    The words had Jaike flinching, pain flashing in her dark eyes.
    It had him groaning and ignoring her struggles, he pulled her onto his lap and wrapped his arms tightly around her. “I’m sorry, baby, but I want – need – you to hear the truth. We both need this.”
    She confessed shakily, “It hurts. Just thinking about you with another girl…”
    “It’s all in the past,” he said fiercely. “And it will stay in the past, got that?” But doubts still clouded her gaze, making him sigh. He pressed a kiss to her forehead. “I did it because I was looking for that special someone who would understand me. I’ve always thought that somewhere in this world, there’d be a girl who wouldn’t mind I was possessive to a fault. That I would want to own her and be mine completely. Every time I met someone that I thought would be compatible with me, I’d show a little of that side of myself, and you know what happens?”  
    She shook her head.
    His lips twisted. “They get scared. They’d try to hide it of course. I’m the heir to two billion-dollar fortunes, after all. But I could smell, I could feel their fear, and of course I knew they weren’t the one.” He cupped her face. “Until you.”
    Her eyes widened.  
    “So be honest with me, baby. Are you afraid of me?” He found himself holding his breath.
    She shook her head. “I’m only afraid of myself – of how much you mean to me. How much you’ve always meant to me from the very start.”
    The words had him kissing her tenderly, a brush of lips that somehow felt more intimate than any caress. Derek was always sweet and affectionate, charmingly so, but this was the first time she had experienced his tenderness. If it was up to her, she’d make sure that this tender side of his would only be hers to see, forever.
    “Jaike?”
    “Y-yes?”
    “In case you still doubt it, let me say it very clearly now.” He traced her lips. “I love you. I have loved you from the first day I saw you, and I will love you forever.”
    Pleasure like no other exploded inside her at hearing the words. But at the same time, despair hit because she knew, even without trying, that she couldn’t make herself say the words. Not so soon, not