crowd the people up front,â he went on in a rueful way. âYou and I would never have talked the way we have. Not out there.â He nodded down the canyon and over the dam. âIâm sorry, Viv.â
âAbout what?â
âI just couldnât keep him from being alone.â
They were coming up to a length of level ground. The horses would break to a trot for a hundred yards along the water, on a beach of broken stones. They had, perhaps, a couple of minutes more before they could not hear above the beat of hooves. Five minutes after that, they would lay out breakfast on a jut of land in the reservoirâshaded by an orange tree the rising water hadnât ever reached. They must have known there were certain things they would only say today, at this one moment. That is really all she neededâjust to know there wasnât time to waste.
âYou thought I left? Is that what you thought? Let me tell you something, Artie. This whole last year, Iâd look at Jasper and start to think: What if you stay and he pulls you down? So I took off. I had to get away from it. But listen: I would have come back. Jasper knew that. God damn it, I was on my way.â
Though she hoped it would answer the question he said she was avoiding, she couldnât be certain now she knew what the question was. When she spoke again, her voice was a good deal smaller.
âDid Jasper say I left him?â
âYes. But I told him he was wrong.â
They must have used up half their time, just letting that sink in. She supposed that Artie knew he was staying on at Steepside. He lived there, didnât he? Why, therefore, did they talk as if things between them were in the past tense? They acted as if it wouldnât work straight on. The pretext had been removed. Perhaps theyâd gone on too long devoid of ulterior motive, without a word like friend or lover to neatly wrap them up. Perhaps they couldnât make it all alone.
âWell, maybe he was right,â she said, as if Jasperâs guess was as good as hers. âI suppose I never got used to his fans. Theyâre too damn loyal. Mine donât love me at all.â
âHe used to love them back,â said Artie. âBut that stopped too. He didnât love anyone anymore.â
They were two steps short of the straightaway. Artieâs fat-assed mare slid down the last few feet and scrabbled forward. Vivien called out louder than she liked, for fear he would get away before she got it right.
âExcept for Harry Dawes,â she said.
âNo, no,â protested Artie, ânot even him.â The horse shot off along the stony track. The rest of what he said he had to shout out over his shoulder. âI already told you,â Artie bellowed, sending an echo round the canyon, âHarry Dawes was just a fantasy.â The name repeated again and again, till it didnât mean a thing. Just then, she reached the flats herself. She hurried along in Artieâs wake. He shouted one last time: âThere was no Harry Dawes.â
And that was the way they left it.
It was eight years past that Jasper Cokes arrived in the town that made him, straight out of two years in the army. Passed out cold in the bed of the truck heâd driven east from Cleveland years before, when he left to go to college in Vermont. He woke up squinting at the morning sun, just as they made the downhill turn off the freeway and passed the Hollywood Bowl. Hung over on Napa red, he wasnât in much of a mood, but he liked the palms and the stucco right off. He rapped his knuckles on the rear window, as if to knock on wood.
Up front in the cab were his college palsâCarl Dana and Art Balducci, mismatched as a two-man stand-up teamâand much too busy arguing maps to turn around just now. And anyway, Jasperâs first impressions were not of any real consequence, not to what they were after. The master plan for this career had been