have sparring * classes. Everyone fights in rounds for an hour. Thereâs a guy named Brendan who only comes on Wednesdays. Heâs about six feet two and two hundred pounds, with tree trunks for legs. Sparring with him is like taking on a swinging girderâat any time, he can just kick a leg straight out and topple me. Once or twice each Wednesday, as we rotate partners, he knocks the wind out of me. Sabunim has to rub my back until I can breathe again before she encourages me to keep fighting.
Jessica Greenâs True Power Martial Arts is like my high schoolâs evil twin. Everything that I can do at Stuyvesantâconcentrate, participate in class, keep my pants onâI canât manage in karate. Iâm pretty anonymous at Stuy, but in karate, everyone knows my name.
Maybe the real reason that I go to karate class is because I need something to be bad at. Iâve always been good at school stuff: math, reading, tests, obedience. Until karate, my only problem was talking out of turn in class. Now I have something to be bad at twice a week, over and over, without hope of improvement. The humiliation is becoming addictive.
* When I was eight, I played in a soccer league for a season. All the other teams had cool names (Tigers, Condors), but I got stuck on a team with an insane coach named Mr. Sack, who insisted on calling us âThe Sack Attack.â The Sack Attack went 0â12 that season. I was the goalie.
* Sparring means âcontrolled fighting.â Itâs two people getting together and beating on each other for two minutes.
HERE COMES TROUBLE
âA re you a virgin?â she asked, speaking slowly and deliberately.
âOf course,â I said, nodding several times. Perfectly reasonable question.
âWell, I lost my virginity â¦Â ah â¦Â the summer between ninth and tenth grades. Donât lose it too soon.â
Oh, sure, thatâs a big problem of mine. Losing it too soon.
âHow about, you know, getting to third base? * Have you ever done that?â
âUh, no,â I gulped.
âUh-huh.â
She sipped her drink. There was silence. I saw what was coming: more questions.
âSo you never got laid? Have you ever felt a girlâs breasts?â
After each of these, I shook my head, and she looked even more stunned.
I stopped her with a speech. âUh, I donât think you understand. Iâm a nerd. See, what we do isââIcounted on my fingersââ(1) go to school, (2) get good grades, (3) come home, (4) play Magic. Iâm just not good with girls.â
She didnât give up. âAre your parents really overprotective or something?â
âNope. Theyâre great.â
âAnd no girls like you?â
âMaybe some do. I donât talk to them much. Itâs probably my crooked mouth.â
âYour mouth?
Noooo
. I donât think itâs crooked. I think itâs very sexy.â
Whoa. I was talking with Amy Sohn,
New York Press
columnist, at the paperâs annual âBest of Manhattanâ party. * I had wanted to meet her all evening. She wrote some amazingly dirty things in a weekly newspaper read by a hundred thousand people.
I liked her. She was shorter than me, wearing something black. Stylish red glasses. Perfectly arched eyebrows. A childlike face. She reminded me of a fifth-grade teacherânot
my
fifth-grade teacher, a brown-toothed psychotic who had throttled my friend Ben ** during classâbut a nice, normal teacher.
âWell â¦,â she said, more casually than before, asI sipped my cola. âIf you ever do want to lose your virginity, call me. Iâll loan you my
body
.â *
My brain, which had churned out clever anecdotes just moments before, shut down. Was I being offered sexual favors by an older woman? Nah. Must have misheard.
âIâm sorry?â I squeaked.
âI said,â she moved in close, slowly mouthing each