problem is.
âIs it a brother-sister disagreement? Are sissy and Jimbo spatting?â
âNo. My parents are getting divorced,â I say. âMy dad has a new girlfriend.â
No one says anything. As fog blows in, the water turns black and cold, and the other two paddle in, shouting goodbyes to Jim, looking at him strangely.
Jim doesnât come close to me. He takes off on a small wave, sliding at first, looking like heâs gonna wipe out, but pulling it off at the last second. He swims to the shore and gives me the middle finger over his back.
I watch the sunset alone. Big, empty clouds hang just offshore.
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When my father comes to collect his family china, my mother doesnât yell at him, she even helps wrap the plates in newspaper. I spy through the door, barely breathing.
âWhat happened to the way it was? Why did we move here?â she asks.
âYouâre the one who wanted the money and the Mercedes.â
âWhy donât you just stop then,â she says softly, âif it doesnât mean anything to you?â
He looks around, gesturing at the furniture, the bikes in the driveway, then her body.
âIt isnât just the kind of thing you can stop. I think you know that, Sandy.â
When they go into the bedroom and lock the door, I can barely see through the peephole. My father opens his briefcase and shows my mother a thick notebook of papers. My mother laughs at the papers; she says there isnât any reason to take things this far.
For a while, it looks as if weâre all going to be okay. My mother apologizes, says my father canât leave her, he promised heâd never do it.
âFor better or worse, remember, Phil?â
Then she promises sheâll go on a diet, âfor real this time.â Sheâll even have her jaw wired shut like a Hollywood actress she read about, if it will make my father happy. My parents hug, both of them cry. My mother turns her face to my father like in a movie, trying to kiss him, but he jumps back, and places the briefcase on her lap, opening it. He takes her face in his hands, gently forcing her head to look at the papers.
âHere are your choices,â he says.
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
My father leaves quietly, not saying good-bye. My motherâs face is puffy, her eyes bright and piercing. She acts like sheâs in a very good mood, laughing and clapping her hands as she tells us that my father offered to buy her a house in Minnesota, on a lake. She describes how the houses are classy in Minnesotaâbig porches with real antiques. âNone of this fake Spanish style,â she says.
Then she starts to cry. She grabs Jimâs shoulders, and pulls him to her chest, hugging him tight.
âPhil promised heâd never leave me. Youâre all going to leave me, arenât you?â
Jim strokes her hair, murmurs softly, tells her heâs nothing like our father.
âHow could you even think that?â he says, pale, small.
âSo youâll stay with me? Even like this?â Her voice is high, shrill, as she slaps her heavy thighs, pinches a roll of fat on her stomach, dissolves into fresh tears. Jim refuses to look at her body, trains his eyes on the flat horizon. His voice is neutral, terrible.
âDonât, Mom.â
My mother suddenly stands upright, mascara running down her face, lipstick smeared across her chin, hairstyle askew. She holds Jimâs hand, faces me.
âYour precious father wants to get rid of us, while he makes a new family with that woman,â she snorts. âHe thought he could pull a fast one on me. â
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Jim and my mother have strategy meetings this week. She gives him my fatherâs antique rolltop desk and a locking file box, too. After school, she teaches him about paying bills, which ones are important, which ones can wait. She also opens up a bank account in Jimâs name to