coast. She was going into a downward spiral like Iâd never seen. It wasnât clear in most of her e-mailsâmainly the ones to her sister, and hints in the messages to her mom.â
âDid you feel bad spying on her?â Jace asked.
Joe rubbed his face. âWell, yeah. But it was my only form of contact. I couldnât resist. As time went on, I realized that she felt alone. Maybe itâs the romantic in me, but I thought maybe even though she couldnât remember me, a part of her was grieving my absence.â
Suddenly Cole was fighting back tears. Were his parents like that? Could they feel something was wrong, even though they had forgotten him? Were they depressed without knowing why? Even if it caused them pain, Cole couldnât help hoping that some part of them deep down remembered him. He had to believe there was some hidden refuge of memory that might be wakened somehow.
âThat must have been difficult,â Mira said tenderly.
Staring at the floor, Joe folded and unfolded his arms. âItwasnât a picnic. The longer I watched, the clearer her sadness became. I couldnât take seeing Gwen like that, unable to help her. It led to a crazy, stupid plan.â
âWhat?â Cole asked, fascinated.
âI decided to bring her here,â Joe said.
âDid you do it?â Dalton asked. âDid it make her remember you?â
âIâm getting there,â Joe said. âI checked with a Wayminder. Not Sallanah. She was long gone. He told me that bringing Gwen here wouldnât make her remember me. But Gwen fell in love with me once, right? Iâd woo her again. Iâd fix the emptiness I saw in her. And maybe fill the void inside of me.â
âBut sheâd be stuck here too,â Cole said.
Joe nodded, rubbing his hands together. âI thought that through. If youâre not a slave, and you live quietly, keep your head down, it isnât so bad here. We could live fulfilling lives, especially if we had each other. What I had with Gwen was epic. Whether or not she could remember me, I knew weâd figure it out. I convinced myself that if given a choice, Gwen would want to be with me. So I hired the Wayminder. My plan was to kidnap my fiancée and bring her here.â
âHowâd that work out?â Dalton asked.
Joe winced. âCould have gone better.â
âTell us,â Cole urged, completely hooked.
Gazing down at the floor, Joe wiped a hand over his face. âI knew it was a risk. That she might see me as a villain. But I thought we could overcome that. She was still Gwen, right? And Iâm still me.â He fell silent.
âIt went badly?â Mira guessed.
âImagine this. We open a way to the street in front of my fiancéeâs apartment. Ex-fiancée? Anyhow, I knew she was bad at locking the back door, and sure enough, I hop the fence into her little yard and find it open. I creep across her kitchen in the dark and up the stairs. Itâs all way too familiar. Almost like I never left. Iâm going quietly. I know that to her Iâll seem like a burglar. By the light coming through her window from the street I can see her sleeping. Sheâs so pretty. Without the worst luck ever, she would have already been my wife. We would have been married for years.â
Joe folded his arms. âThere I am, in her room. I just have to get her down the stairs and out front to the way. Sheâs no weakling, but neither am I. I was sure I could get her there.â
âBut,â Cole inserted.
Joe grimaced. âBut there she was, snug and safe in a city without slaves, a place where she was free to live however she chose. How could I take that from her? Take away her home. Her family. Her job. Her life. Without permission.â
âWhat a nightmare,â Mira said.
âI couldnât do it,â Joe said. âI wasnât just worried about her thinking I was a villain. I
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