Free Hurt Me by Glenna Marie Page A

stomach and along my hip bones. I could feel myself moisten with excitement as he kissed lower and lower. I don’t think I have ever actually made love before and it was making me nervous. Lee just took me whether I wanted it or not and even in the beginning it was all so he could just get off. Allen grabbed at my thighs slowly pulling them apart as he watched me. I didn’t try to stop him; I wanted whatever he had to give. He stood up and I saw him take his sweat pants off. He was so gorgeous. He climbed over me kissing me body.
    “Are you sure you want this , Evangeline?” He asked.
    “I need you , Allen.” And with those words he sent me over the edge. He caressed me and whispered beautiful things in my ear as he made love to me. He made sure I knew what he was going to do and made sure I was taken care. It was the most amazing thing I had ever felt in my whole life. When we were done I lay in his arms panting. He kissed the top of my head and pulled the covers of us. I can’t believe I just made love with a man that wasn’t my husband but most of all I couldn’t believe I just made love with Allen.
       I all of a sudden started to feel nauseous. Oh no , not now! I screamed at myself. I got up and ran to the bathroom. After I was done heaving I heard Allen behind me turning on the shower.
    “ Was I that bad?” he asked with a smile playing on his lips.
    “No, it’s the baby. I’m sorry. The morning sickness is getting old pretty fast.” I explained, hoping he really didn’t think it was his love making that caused this.
    “Let’s clean you up” he said while helping me off the floor. He got in the shower and helped me in after him. He held me close to him while the water poured over us. He made me feel so good. I was still in shock that this was actually happening but so glad it was. I never knew that a man could make you feel this way, it was invigorating. I felt Allen’s hands move down to my belly and keep them there. We stood just like that until the water started to turn cold. Silently we got out and dried off and got ready for bed. We both knew what was happening but didn’t know how to address it, and this tiny person growing in me wasn’t making it easier.
    We were in bed and I lay there with my head in the crook of his arm. He turned over and looked like he had been thinking really hard. It made me feel nervous; I didn’t want this perfect moment to be ruined.
    “Are you excited about the baby?” Allen asked me quietly.
    “I’ve always wanted to be a mom” I explained to him. “I’m just nervous about not giving this baby the home he or she deserves.”
    Allen was quiet for a moment, kissing my forehead and my cheek.
    “You will make a good mom.” He said to me. I felt myself blush.
    “Thanks.” I smiled at him. I could tell by the look in his steel grey eyes that he meant it. It made my stomach swarm with butterflies.
    “How far along are you?” he looked so curious like he really wanted to know about this baby that wasn’t his.
    “I’m guessing about six weeks. I haven’t been to the doctor yet, you’re the first person I’ve told.” He looked at me shocked and kind of confused.
    “Your husband doesn’t know?” he asked eyeing me suspiciously.
    “No, I don’t even know if I want to tell him.” I said. I really didn’t want to tell Lee. There was no telling how he would react. God I hated him. I could feel anger rising up in the pit of my stomach. At that moment I was thankful to be laying here with Allen. I have never felt so comfortable in a man’s presence before.  I wanted to tell him everything and I secretly wished he would just take me away from it all. I wanted him to be my knight in shining armor but something told me he wasn’t going to come save me. I had to leave on my own accord.
    “Well wouldn’t he know? Y’all did this together; I mean this is how babies are made.”
    “It’s not that simple ,Allen.”
    “What do you mean, not that