âWhat about you? Are you close with your family?â
If Owen recognized that she was changing the subject, he was kind enough not to acknowledge it. âYeah. Iâve got three siblings and theyâre all within a few hoursâ drive. We all try to get together for holidays and we do a big gathering every summer. Itâs nice.â
âAre any of the rest of them into baking?â
He shook his head. âNo, thatâs just me. I cooked with my mom as a little kid, but I didnât really know what I was doing, of course.â He smiled, obviously recalling fond memories. âUsed to try and make up my own recipes, which all turned out terrible, but my parents always ate whatever I made. I think they were amused more than anything. I took home ec as a freshman to try and meet girls, but ended up learning that I have a knack for baking, and I fell in love with it. My uncle bought the bakery right about the same time, so I started working summers for him. Went to culinary arts school, became a trained pastry chef, and bought the business from him when he wanted to retire.â He turned to face her. âThere, thatâs the whole life story.â
âI think itâs great that your family supported you in following your dream.â Iris wondered what that would have been like, if her parents had stayed together, if she had siblings to visit.
Owen nodded. âHonestly, I think they were just happy I found something. I wasnât exactly a good student. School couldnât hold my attention most of the time, and I was always getting into trouble. I think its because I had a huge crush on the guidance counselor, which is where they sent me when I kept cutting classes.â He grinned. âMiss Nelson. She was so hot.â
Iris laughed. âWomen in positions of authority?â
âWhat can I say?â Owen gave a half shrug, as much as he could while lying down. âMy patterns set in early. If it werenât for baking, Iâd probably have ended up dropping out or something. I wasnât a dumb kid,â he added quickly. âJust easily bored. My family never gave up on me, though. They believed in me, and I couldnât have succeeded if I hadnât had that support. Running a business nearly killed me that first year, but they were always nearby if I needed help or advice.â
Iris rolled away from him, onto her back, and made patterns out of the water stains on the popcorn ceiling. âI wish I had that. I have friends, at least. Itâs not family, but itâs still good. And I have a fun social life.â This had gotten way too serious a conversation to follow some casualâalbeit mind-blowingâsex.
Owen turned over to look at her. Even though she was still focused on the ceiling, she could feel him watching her, calm and placid, his dark eyes asking nothing. It was pleasant to be looked at so peacefully. âIâm getting the impression that you avoid relationships. Thatâs working all right for you?â
âSo far.â Iris shrugged. âNone of my partners have really wanted relationships, and that suits me all right.â
âWhat if you had a partner who wanted a relationship?â Owen propped himself up on his elbow.
Iris looked over at him. âAre you asking to make this more serious?â
âItâs pretty early to suggest that. Iâm talking purely hypothetically.â Owenâs expression stayed neutral.
Iris looked back up at the ceiling again. âI donât know. I donât think Iâm really relationship material.â It was simpler to just keep these things sex-only. If someone really got to know her, theyâd see that she wasnât good at the relationship aspects beyond sex. All those emotional hang-ups, the resistance to marriage and settling down, the fear of opening up. But if it was just sex . . .
âWe could do this again if you wanted.â