their sewing, but he saw pretty quick that I wouldnât go along. He kept smiling at me with his horse teeth, too close to my face. They had to change the bandages often because I would not stop bleeding. It felt like I had been boned and shredded, like a sack of wet bread, leaking and swollen and soft.
I guess I made it hard on them. They were used to seeing wrecked-up bodies and sick people, but I suppose it wasnât so common to see someone like me, just roughed up for the hell of it. They wouldnât give me a mirror. But I could see how my whole body was black and purple, even yellow, from being torn up so much on the inside. The swelling was awful, and where the skin had been plain torn off, scabs came up and then cracked and more blood seeped up in black rivers to fill the cracks. It wasnât only blood, either. From the raw skin of my wrists came a stuff like vegetable oil, clear and thick. The oil came, too, from the tips of my fingers and from the corners of my fingernails, where the skin was cracked and stretched from the swelling.
I was doped up all the time but it didnât make my mood good. It only made me mad that I was a little goofy. It was the first time I had to be in a hospital bed since my fingers and my eye had been blown away. I had to shit into a pan until they would let me get up.
Pretty soon that bastard Hank Chew came to see me. He rapped with his rings on the glass of the door and breezed right in.
âOh, Caudill! Youâre an affront to my senses!â
âGo on out of here, then. Filthy buzzard.â
âGone on a bender, have you? A bit too much of the stuff?â
âThatâs the story,â I muttered. âFell off a streetcar.â
âWell, it stretches the limits of credulity.â
âThatâs your problem.â
âListen, Caudill, arenât we friendly? Didnât I agree to help you out?â
âThatâs nothing to me anymore,â I said. âForget about it. Iâm not in any shape now to worry about somebody elseâs problems.â
The pain by that time had become so general over my whole body that the irritation of Chewâs presence was like the chirping of a cricket. He strutted about the room and then perched on the edge of my bed so he could speak closely to me.
âA man needs friends, Caudill. You need to keep up the ties that bind. You could have used a friend two nights ago, am I right?â
âOpen up the curtain a little, Chew,â I said.
He shut his yapper and looked sharply at me. Then he got up and tried to work the curtains. There wasnât anything to see outside but the tops of some trees, but I felt closed in.
âThatâs a professional workover,â he said, leaning back on the sill. âAn admirable job. You expect anybody to believe that you were tossed around by some guys at a bar?â
I shrugged and turned my bleary eye toward him.
âOut-of-town guys, were they?â Chew was delighted in his way to be close to something vigorous and physical, so full of blood. His eyes roamed over the damage with admiration. âCome on, Caudill,â he said. âIf itâs a good story, Iâll get at it one way or another. Youâll come out better if you put your two cents in with me now.â
âMove away from that window.â
I might have slept if it was quiet. It was an effort just to keep up with what Chew was saying.
âI can work around you, Caudill. Iâm not the biggest guy or the fastest guy or even the smartest guy, but I never give up. You can see that.â
âIf you keep sticking your nose in, youâll be the next one they come after.â
âIâm not afraid,â he said quickly. âI keep one eye open all the time. I can take care of myself.â
âStill,â I said, âstill, youâve never been worked over like this, have you?â
âNo, I havenât. I guess I havenât been