Free Spoiled Secrets by Ebony N. Donahue Page A

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                  What’s got my insides all tied up in knots is that, I’ve never felt for anyone the way my sister is describing the way I feel for Amber.  I don’t know if it’s because I haven’t given anyone a chance, or if it is as simple as, no one has sparked my interest until now.  Poor mom, to have me agree without hesitating to Peanut’s untimely declaration of my feelings, has just thrown mom for a major loop. To be honest, I’m riding that loop of confusion right along with her.
     
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                  This weekend was torture.  I tried so hard to consume myself with my everyday chores and my little sister.  I had to quickly abandon the decision to spend quality time with Peanut.  I was trying to get my mind off of Amber and hanging out with little sister is like spending your spare time at a shooting range.  Her conversations has always been set on rapid fire and this weekend’s questions regarding Amber, were her ammunition.  I’ll give you one guess, on who the target was.  ME! 
                 
                  When Sunday finally arrived, Peanut sensed my frustration at all her questions plus, mom, was giving me “the look”; all of this, combined with my dwindling nerves did not help my situation.  I know that they were curious and concerned, but I couldn’t handle all of the prying…not now.  How can I explain what I’m feeling when I’m just as curious and concerned about my own feelings, as they are?  So, I locked myself in my room once again to try and clear my head.
     
                  “Chase, can I please come in?”  Peanuts voice whispered from the crack at the bottom of the door. 
     
                  I lift my head to find my sisters little fingers poking through that space, where the bottom of the door doesn’t quite touch the carpeted floor.  I smiled and remained silent, hoping that if I didn’t speak, she would think I was sleeping. 
     
                  “Chase, please…please, let me in before momma finds me.  She told me to leave you alone.”  I remained quiet, while resting on my side watching her little fingers shoved under my door tugging at the carpeted floor.
     
                  “Francis!  What the hell!  Didn’t I tell you to leave him alone?  Sometimes he doesn’t want to be bothered with you.  Go to your room, NOW!”  
     
                  I was up and the door was swung open before the thought to do so even registered.  I was affronted with silent tears running down Peanut’s face.
     
                  “Come here.”  I said as I opened my arms wide and bent to pick her up. 
     
                  She flung herself into my awaiting arms.  I lifted her as she wrapped her little legs around my waist and tucked her wet tear stained face in the crook of my neck.  Automatically, I began that gentle rock that she’s accustomed too.
     
                  “She needs to go to her room!” 
     
                  “She’s fine.” 
     
                  “She’s not fine!”  Mom shouted.  “She needs to learn boundaries; you can’t rescue her all the time when I try to discipline her.” 
     
                  Mom was pissed!  She was so wrong, I would always be there for my sister.  I would always rescue her from whomever and whatever that intends to threaten her…even from her own mother.
     
                  “I said she’s fine.” 
     
                  I gave mom a look that said; just leave it alone already.   I knew from the set of her shoulders and the look in her eyes that it wasn’t going to happen.
     
                  “I’m the fucking adult around here!”  She exploded.  Peanut clung to me; she pressed he face deeper into the crook of my neck.