will get you nowhere.â
âObviously,â she says. âContrary to popular belief, they donât kill all the lawyers, they just neuter them. Thatâs funny, they must have missed me,â she says.
âYouâre a lawyer?â
âI donât practice any longer.â
âThatâs good, because going around passing yourself off as an investigator with the state bar could probably get your ticket punched.â
âIâm licensed in another state,â she says.
âFor your sake I hope itâs the state of grace, because thereâs a good chance youâre gonna find yourself up to your high heels in some serious doo-doo if you continue pursuing this line of inquiry.â
âYou wonât say anything,â she says. âNot about what I told you. Not about our source.â
âWhy not? If Iâve been as emasculated as you suspect, maybe thereâs something I want that they can give me in return.â
âLike what? Courage?â Sheâs up out of her chair. âYouâre no lion and this ainât no yellow brick road. Just the same, you wonât tell them.â
âHow can you be so sure?â
âBecause refusing to help me is not the same as helping them. And you know as well as I do that they canât be trusted.â
âAnd I thought I was a skeptic.â
âEvery government in the world thinks it owns the cartel on virtue,â she says. âOf course, none of them would use the bomb. Those that have it would love to get rid of it, but they canât. They need it to keep other less noble and more warlike pricks from using it on them. And the angels who donât have it would never pursue it, unless of course they have an excess of spent fuel rods that need to be put to some useful purpose, wasted resources being a terrible sin. In the meantime, bombs like the one on your truck have become war surplus, like old canteens and frayed fatigue jackets. I used to ask how long before some nutcase on a crusade got his hands on one. Now I guess Iâm gonna have to come up with a new question, because we both know the answer to that one, donât we?â
I donât answer.
âHave it your way.â She slings the briefcase over her shoulder, stands up, and heads for the door. As she gets there, hand on the knob, she stops to look at me one more time. âYouâre a hard sell,â she says. âYouâre sure thereâs no way I can persuade you? Make no mistake. Itâs a watershed event. News of this would flash around the world before you could blink. It would force people to wake up. It would produce a backlash that those in power would not be able to ignore. Right now theyâre asleep. What is it going to take to get their attention? Do you have any idea how many people would have died if that device had detonated? This office probably wouldnât be here,â she says. âAnd we must be at least two miles away.â
âYou know a lot. It was nice meeting you. And thanks for the stage direction. Iâll try to keep the dogs from humping my leg.â
She smiles. âYou do that.â
âOne piece of advice. Iâd stay away from Mr. Diggs. Heâs not as understanding as I am.â
âIs that right?â
âYes. If you try to lie your way into his office, he wonât have anydifficulty at all ginning up anger. And as for his body language, you may find yourself suspended by your panty hose from the flag-pole in front of his office.â
âReally?â
âReally.â
âIâll be sure to wear pants,â she says. âIâm pretty good at it.â
I make a mental note to call Herman and warn him.
TEN
D ad, what is your problem? Iâm just going out with a friend for the evening. Iâm not running away. Though the thought has occurred to me.â Sarah stands near the foot of the stairs in the entryway, her arms
J.A. Konrath, Bernard Schaffer