grimaced ââyou had such a great way of calming him without babying him like I always seem to do. At the time, it might not have seemed like much, but your help meant a lot to me.â
âIt was no big deal. You forget I used to be a dad. I know how kooky kids sometimes get.â
âOh, I knowâwhich is why I feel bad even asking you this, but would you consider spending an hour or two a week with my boys? Iâd gladly do a favor for you in return. Clean or cookâwhatever. Itâs just that the older they get, the more I feel like they need a strong male influence, and unfortunately, their dad took himself out of the picture.â
She didnât want him to spend time with her, but with her kids?
Wow, Marsh, youâre even further off your game than you thought.
âI know itâs a lot to ask, but last night, the boys tried to mop the baby, andââ
âHold upâthey what?â
âLong story.â Her adorably toothy grin made him a little sad she hadnât wanted that date. âHonestly, Iâm not even sure what Iâd need you to do. Iâm just struggling with disciplineâmostly with Coltâand wondering if I devise a way to nip trouble now, it wonât get worse once heâs older.â
âMakes sense.â What didnât was the way Marsh realized heâd leaned closer while sheâd been talking, rapt with interest over anything she had to say. The corners of her lips had the cutest crinkle, and at that moment, he would have agreed to anything to spend more time watching her talk, which was confusing as hell.
âThen youâll do it?â
âIt would be a privilege.â
She exhaled. âI wasnât sure how youâd take it. I thought you might think Iâm a kook. Plus, I worried if being around Colt and Remington might bother you since, well, you know...â
âWhat happened with my son?â His jaw hardened, and he nodded. âThe funny thing is, your guys are so much older than he was that itâs somehow different. With your daughter, I remember those baby stages, but Colt and Remington are a couple of characters who make me happyânot sad.â
âGood. Then we have a deal?â She held out her hand for him to shake.
âHold upânot so fast.â He couldnât resist teasing her. âYou mentioned that weâd be exchanging services. What do I get?â
âOhâof course.â She reddened again, and he liked the rev it brought to his pulse. âWell, I can clean, exercise your horses, cookââ
âYahtzee. Me and Wallace live on TV dinners and pork ânâ beans. How about a couple times a week, you bring over your crew and Iâll take them out riding, teach them about horses and cattle, and hopefully sneak in a few life lessons? Meanwhile, you and Cass can be inside, whipping up a meat loaf or spaghettiâoh, and pie. Lord, Iâve missed pie.â
âDeal.â They shook on it. âI take it your wife was a great cook?â
âYeah...â He hadnât thought anything positive about Leah in ages. Hard to believe theyâd once been in love. Where had it gone? All the emotion heâd once felt for her?
âWhatâs wrong? You look sad. If youâre having second thoughts, we canââ
âIâm good. I was thinking about my ex. You ever wonder how a marriage that starts out promising turns out to be a dud? Like, I get losing our son was rough on us both, but how did we also lose each other?â Marsh hadnât meant to admit any of that out loud, but something about Effie gave safety to his confession.
She cupped her hand over his, filling him with warmth he wasnât sure he deserved but certainly appreciated. Once again, Effie had slipped into angel mode. She seemed to constantly be looking out for others, but when did she focus on herself?
He flipped her hand, clasping