places with me for a day. Then heâd be grateful for what heâs got. But in a few more months, Iâll be gone and Iâll never have to worry about his stupid rules ever again.
âYou know what, boy? Just go to bed,â he said as I walked back over. âWeâll talk about this tomorrow and Iâm taking your keys.â
We never said good night to each other. We never apologized. We just sauntered to our own rooms and stood our own ground. I wasnât a lilâ boy anymore. My dadâs voice couldnât shake me anymore.
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My parentsâ room wasnât right down the hall, it was downstairs. So I couldnât believe it when I was awakened to the two of them arguing early Saturday morning. Dragging myself downstairs, I had to get down there to see what was going on. I knew my folksâ relationship hadnât been all good lately, but arguing in the house was something I had never heard them do. I figured if I let them see me, then they would cease screaming.
However, I was frozen in my tracks when I heard my mother say, âYou act like I donât know whatâs best for our son.â
âIâm not saying you donât know whatâs best for him, you just keep babying the boy!â my dad said loudly.
Aww, snap! They were arguing about me, I realized. Truly, I didnât want to be the cause of tension between them.
âJunior needs to be looking at a school thatâs gonâ challenge his mind, like Duke or Georgia Tech. Those were my top choices,â my mom said.
My dad said, âIf that boy is going to school for football, then heâs going to have to go somewhere where he doesnât have to pray to get out. Yeah, heâs smart but if he takes that knowledge to a school where academics isnât so overbearing, then heâs gonna come out great. Itâs like you trying to make the boy fail.â
âWell, honey, heâs not going to school to major in football. What if he gets hurt? I mean, letâs be realistic here. Most of those boys who are recruited in high school do not go on to maintain professional careers in their sport. I want our son to have something else to fall back on. Actually, not something to fall back on, but something that is his top priority. And he needs to make this decision. You chose where you wanted to go to school.â
âThat boy donât know what heâs doing. He definitely needs his father in this process. And itâs clear to me that his mama donât need to have nothing to do with it,â my father boasted. âHe doesnât need to go to a school where they donât even have business as a major. You know I want him to take over the dealership one day.â
That was news to me. Payton always wanted that job. And my dad made her feel like it was hers. Now he was saying he wanted me to take up the family buisness. Wonder when he was going to ask me?
He continued, âYouâre not even acknowledging that heâs a great football player. The top player in the state right now, Patricia. He needs to ride the football thing until the ride ends. Youâre trying to make him get off of it before it stops. Believe in your son.â
My mom put her hand up in front of my dad. I guess she wanted him to hush up. He grabbed her arm harshly. It was something about the way he grabbed it that made me snap. I dashed inside the kitchen area and pushed my father back with hard force. Iâd never used that on him before. It was like defending a free safety or something.
âBoy, have you lost your mind?â my dad yelled as he turned and grabbed me by the collar. âI wasnât gonâ hurt your mama. Weâre just in here talking.â
His lilâ grip wasnât bothering me at all. I just didnât want my dad to think that I was scared of him. I know what I saw, and I know what I heard. And my momâs reaction showed she was very
Eric Flint, Charles E. Gannon