the bouquet of yellow roses heâd brought. Her favorite. He tugged at some of the grass around the headstone, tossed it away. The wind took it.
Years ago, when Rachel had first suggested buying plots, heâd refused. It wasnât something he wanted to think about. So this one had been bought after sheâd left him, by her or Hersh maybe, when the end seemed near. But it was a single plot. There was no room for him, in the ground or on the headstone.
He stood, his bad knee aching, wiped wet dirt from his pants. Iâm sorry, girl, he thought. You were too good for me, always were. Why you put up with me so long, I donât know.
He couldnât remember the last time theyâd spoken. The day sheâd left, heâd been too drunk or stonedâhe wasnât even sure whichâto process it. Heâd come home late to a silent house, a note on the kitchen table. In a haze, heâd walked the empty rooms, looking for signs of them. Then heâd gone out and sat on the front steps in the cold, looked up at the starry sky over the cornfields, too numb to feel much of anything.
He found a flat stone near the fence, carried it back. He tucked the roses against the side of the marker, laid the stone atop it.
Finally got the chance to say good-bye, honey, he thought. Sorry it took so long.
The wind blowing around him, he limped back to the car.
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
Driving back to the motel, Marta said, âWe shouldnât stay out here.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âItâs not good for you being here, getting mixed up in all this again. We should go somewhere. Florida, maybe. California. Someplace youâve never been, where nobody knows you.â
Light rain was spotting the windshield. He turned the wipers on.
âAngel, I donât have enough money to get us anywhere. Not to live, anyway.â
âYou can get a job again, cooking. I can always waitress. God knows I did it long enough. Weâll make it work.â
âWe will. Soon. Thereâs something else I need to look into first.â
âWhat? Whatâs more important than you and me?â
âThose guys in Indiana,â he said. âThey were after me because of some money that was hidden away a long time ago. A lot of money. They thought I knew where it was.â
âAnother reason we shouldnât be here.â
âWell, thatâs the thingâ¦â
âWhat?â
âThe money. Knowing where it is.â
âWhat about it?â
âI think I do.â
SEVEN
She didnât like it. Here was this big BMW, smoked windows, rims, cruising up Lexington Avenue in the middle of the afternoon, slowing as the driver looked for her. She was where she was supposed to be, the corner of Sixtieth, but now she was getting nervous. It all felt too exposed, too open.
She wore thin black leather gloves. In her left hand was the cup of coffee sheâd gotten from a street cart. In her right was the .32, deep in her coat pocket.
The BMW steered to the curb, rear window powering down. The man inside gestured to her.
She sipped coffee, looked up and down the street. Lots of people, but no one watching her. The rear door opened. She dropped her cup in a trash basket, stepped off the curb, got in.
New car smell, shiny leather. As she shut the door, the driver pulled back into traffic. The window slid up silently, the doors locked with a click.
Cavanaugh was in his midthirties. Hair cut short, neatly trimmed soul patch. He wore a black leather duster over a white shirt, a skinny black tie. He slid over to give her room. His cologne was musky, strong.
âI thought that was you,â he said. âBut the description you gave was a little off. Youâre much more attractive in person.â
She let that pass. âThis car a good idea?â
âBetter we talk here than the office. Carlita, my secretary, gets a little nosy. Jealous, too. Iâd get
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