Heâs frightened that heâs only got one last chance to settle down to a normal life with a secure and regular income. Iâd go further: Iâd say heâs pretty desperate. Even if he acts cool.â
âDo you know what youâre saying, Fiona?â
âYes. And really Gwen should be told too.â
Leslie bit her lips. âYou canât, Fiona. Sheâd be ⦠itâs just not possible!â
âBut do you see whatâs awaiting her?â exclaimed Fiona. âThe guy will make himself at home on the farm and calmly wait until Chad departs this earthly life. Nor will he have to wait an eternity for that. I donât doubt that heâll bring all sorts of good ideas about how to make the farm into a really attractive place for people to spend their holidays. I expect he will have the drive to put his plans into action and really make something of the property. Itâs pathetic, how Chad and Gwen have run the B & B until now, and of course he could pep things up. But a marriage is about more than that, surely? I bet he would cheat on her right and left. Heâd take advantage of the students on the Scarborough campus and at some point Gwen would find out, and her world would collapse! Should we let it get to that?â
âShe decided to let it get to that.â
âBecause she thinks she doesnât have a choice. Sheâs been waiting for years for Prince Charming to come galloping along on his white horse and whisk her away. Now heâs come, even if not on a white horse but in just about the most dilapidated old rust-bucket Iâve ever seen. But no matter. Heâs the only man near or far. So heâs important to Gwen. So important that she silences all alarm bells â and Iâm sure that they are ringing inside her.â
âShe sounded different on the phone. More at ease. More cheery. I felt really happy for her.â
âSheâs certainly blossoming, no question. God, Leslie,â Fiona stubbed out her cigarette aggressively. âDo you think Iâm keen to tell Gwen the truth? Of course not! No one is. Itâs a difficult situation.â
âMaybe itâs not our job to tell her, Fiona. Weâre not even related to her.â
âBut weâre the only people she has. Her father isnât happy about Tanner, but he isnât going to get involved. He was always too weak with Gwen. Never in his life would he manage to say no to her, especially not now. But I ⦠she always saw me as a kind of mother to her. Sheâs always relied on me. I wishââ She broke off abruptly and did not say what she wished, perhaps because the impossibility of it was all too apparent to her. Instead she looked penetratingly at her granddaughter. âAnd how are you? How do you feel â freshly divorced?â
Leslie shrugged. âIâve got used to living on my own already. The divorce was just a formality.â
âYouâre not exactly beaming.â
âWhat do you expect? I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Stephen. We wanted to have children ⦠I hadnât foreseen that at thirty-nine Iâd be moving into a little flat, perfectly laid out for a working single person, and be starting from scratch again.â
âI never understood why you separated! You two were so good together. God, because he drank too much once and jumped into bed with some young thing whose name he could barely remember the next day? You threw it all away for that?â
âThe trust was gone. Until it happened, I wouldnât have thought it could be that serious. But that loss of trust affects everything else. Everything had changed. I couldnât ⦠I couldnât bear him any more.â
âEveryone has to know for themselves,â said Fiona.
âExactly,â said Leslie. âGwen too. Fiona, itâs her life. Sheâs grown up. Dave Tanner is the man sheâs chosen. We