round on my knees till I could reach my head in and put my mouth against her ear and ask her what was going on. But when I switched over so she could tell me she just said, âWait. Sheâs still there.â
It was uncomfortable kneeling like that so I twisted myself round, not letting go of her hand, and tried to get her to make room for me by sitting up a bit, but she turned her head away and from how she pushed up with her other arm I realized thereâd got to be something stopping her, clothes on the hangers maybe, so all I could do was settle on the floor in front of the cupboard and hang on to her hand.
After a bit of that I got worried about the light still being on and no blackout so I let go of her and went and switched it off and felt my way back to her. I couldnât see anything at first, and then only where the windows were, and it was a bit creepy sitting there knowing there wasnât just Adalina in the room but this other person, the one Adalina called âshe,â whoâd slung her in the cupboard. Then I thought it had got to be the same for herâI was there and she couldnât see meâand I wondered if there wasnât somehow I could give her the creeps like she was giving me, and I was still thinking about this when I felt Adalina moving around and then running her other hand up my arm until it had to stop where the door was in her world.
That shook her, and no wonder, finding it was just my arm poking through the wood. She tried to let go of my hand, but I hung on and gave her a squeeze and twisted myself into the cupboard and felt around with my other hand until I found her head and got my mouth against her ear.
âItâs all right,â I said. âIâm here. Whatâs going on?â
âSheâs gone,â she said, when weâd sorted ourselves out the other way round.
âHow long for?â I said.
âI donât know,â she said. âAges. Itâs so she can flirt with Mr. Silvey.â
âLook, I donât understand much about any of this,â I said. âFar as I can make out, weâre in two different places, only theyâve both got this house in them, but I canât see or hear anything in your place except you, and itâs the same for you.â
âI donât understand,â she said.
âNor do I,â I said. âAll I can tell you is this cupboard is in both places, only Iâve got the door open and youâve got it shut, which is why you canât get out and I can. And when I switch on the lights in my place they donât come on for you till youâve switched them on too. And you saw me walk through the door into your dadâs bathroom, didnât you? I could do that because Iâd opened it in my place.â
âIt doesnât make sense,â she said.
âItâs a bit easier when youâre used to thinking about it,â I said. âBut youâve got to understand I donât know anything about your place except what you tell me. I donât know who Mr. Silvey is, or this woman who shut you in here. Whyâd she want to go and do a thing like that?â
âSo that she can go and flirt with Mr. Silvey. Heâs Fatherâs secretary. She wants to marry him so she can stop being a governess. At quarter to six I go downstairs to read to Father, so that he can see how I am progressing with my reading, and then I must be back in the nursery at half past six for my bath, and if Iâm late Miss Tarrant is furious because of wanting to be off to see Mr. Silvey. So Father lets me go at twenty-five past six. Itâs all right in the summer, when itâs still light, but when it starts getting dark ⦠thereâs that bad place on the top stair â¦â
I took my head away so she had to stop.
âI call it the cave,â I said. âThereâs something waiting round the corner.â
âI call it the black