away with. When my parents left me for a couple weeks at seventeen, I adopted a kitten. Bill was naughtier, throwing crazy parties while his parents were gone. He steam-cleaned the house before they got home, to the delight of his doting Italian mom and the justified suspicion of his cop dad.
His wife says to me, right in the middle of other things, âI want you to know that Iâm okay with this.â She means that she doesnât mind Bill caring about me and helping me. Iâm glad that she doesnât mind, because I need him tomorrow. Every time heâs said that he can be with me for this part or for that, Iâve looked down at my lap and said âYes, pleaseâ or âGoodâ or, once, âI need you to stay for the whole time. I need you to not leave.â I think he feelsthat need, too. When he talked about how âsome cases stay with you,â his eyes had gotten shiny.
When we get our coats, while we wind scarves around our necks and tug on gloves for the brief dash across the street back to the hotel, I thank him again for prioritizing the hearing over a university event that heâs supposed to attend at the same time. Iâm just relieved that the hearing didnât fall a few weeks later, when heâll be representing the university in Prague and China. He says, without hesitation, âI would have changed the trip if it did.â
I wake up early, because of the time difference, and find a marathon of Law & Order reruns on the hotel room TV. The pattern of each episode is familiar and comforting as it hums in the background, driving toward a resolution every hour. Itâs what I would watch anyway, even if I werenât going to court, but being headed to court makes watching it seem funny. I drink an entire pot of room-service decaf. I get my shoes shined. I have till noon, when Bill and I will walk to court together, through the blade-cold winter air. England doesnât typically get to these temperatures, and the chill feels like childhood to me.
The hearing is not in the historic courthouse near the hotel. Itâs a few blocks away, in the municipal court, a run-down building awkwardly shaped to look like a police badge from above. Bill and I have been instructed to meet the other detectives in front of the âbroken elevators.â Theyâre easy to find once weâre through the oversensitive metal detector and past the chipper, already bored security lady; there are no working elevators to trick us.
Everyone knows Bill. Heâs greeted by passing uniformed cops, security, and press. Newspaper journalists are there, and TV cameras. Theyâre only allowed to film my feet. Iâm glad for the whim that had led me to use the hotelâs shoe-polishing service.
The unpleasant building is pretty much just rooms off a singlelong hallway, a corridor thatâs quickly filled by the line for todayâs hearings. Everyone is scheduled for a twelve thirty start and will just wait their turn. Accusers, accused, and witnesses for lesser cases all stand together in that line. For us, a more sensitive case, Fryar is in a holding pen. Dan Honan and Aprill Campbell arrive and we go upstairs to meet the assistant district attorney (ADA) from the Crimes Against Persons Unit (shortened in conversation to âCrimes Personsâ) whoâll be prosecuting our case. His name is Kevin. Iâm told that this case was fought over in the DAâs office. Everyone wanted it.
On our way up the stairs, the detectives tell me that âGeorgiaâ is already here. I figure out that they mean the other victim, from November the same year as me. Itâs the first time Iâve heard her name. Sheâs with her husband, and two women: weâve each been assigned an advocate from Pittsburgh Action Against Rape.
Georgia has the first prep session with the prosecutor, so Bill, Dan, my advocate, and I continue to hang out in the hallway.