Free Solo by Rana Dasgupta Page A

I have no choice but to stay here and help her.’
    ‘Reality is never clear,’ said Boris. ‘It’s never final. You can always change it or see it a different way. If you’d asked me for money I would have given it to you. I want you to become a great chemist, not to sit around here in Sofia. This place is a disaster. You should have asked me, and my father would have sent you money. He’s still got more money than he knows what to do with.’
    Ulrich stopped short, for he had never considered such a thing. Boris said,
    ‘You never once wrote to me from Berlin, as if you broke everything off as soon as you left. And now you’ve given up your degree and this wonderful woman. It’s as if you’re never truly attached to anything. Except your mother, perhaps.’
    Ulrich felt foolish. He made a silent resolution to solve future dilemmas by imagining what Boris would say. He said weakly,
    ‘Well, there’s nothing I can do now.’
    Boris drew curly lines with his finger in the beer on the table, extending the reflections of the lamps. The folk singer began to sing, and the bar became hushed. She had a deep, raspy voice, but sang with great sensitivity:
    There sat three girls, three friends
,
    Embroidering aprons and crying tiny tears
,
    And they asked each other who loved whom
.
    Boris said,
    ‘What do you think of Georgi?’
    ‘He has a vicious face.’
    Boris laughed.
    ‘I knew you wouldn’t like him,’ he said. ‘The strange thing about Georgi is that he holds a devilish attraction for women. You and I would think, with those teeth and that face, he’d have to make a big effort. But Georgi treats women with contempt, and they still fall over themselves to get him. I can never understand it.’
    The first said: ‘I love a shepherd.’
    The second one said: ‘I love a villager.’
    Boris said under the music:
    ‘Do you remember the conversation we had before you left? When I came to your house?’
    ‘Yes.’
    ‘I’ve thought of it very often. I was wrong. You were right.’
    Ulrich was taken aback. Boris added,
    ‘I sometimes wonder if I should not just have carried on playing music.’
    To Ulrich’s astonishment, Boris’s eyes began to overflow with tears.
    ‘I’m sorry,’ he whispered. He wiped his face.
    The third one said, ‘I love a huge dragon
.
    He comes to me in the evening
,
    In the middle of the night
.
    He lightly  knocks and he lightly enters 
    So that no one will hear him 
    So that no one will know
.
    ‘Things can’t continue as they are,’ said Ulrich, trying to help. Boris gave a doubtful smile.
    This evening the dragon will come,
    He will come to take me away.’
    Georgi came over.
    ‘Let’s go,’ he said to Boris. ‘It’s very late.’
    Boris dropped an offering of coins among the glasses and shook a man whose head was collapsed upon the table. The man would not stir. They left the gathering, pushing through the crowd of people waiting for the musicians’ next song, and made for the door. Outside, the night was cool, and with the air on their necks they realised how drunk they were.
    ‘He wouldn’t even wake up!’ said Boris, who was suddenly overcome with giggles. ‘He couldn’t raise his head to say goodbye!’
    Ulrich had no thought of returning home, and walked where they led him. Georgi said to Boris,
    ‘He can’t come with us.’
    ‘Why not?’
    ‘My room is secret. No one goes there.’
    Boris put his arm around Ulrich.
    ‘He will come with us!’
    Georgi was unhappy, and walked ahead. Boris sang with drunken sentimentality,
    This evening the dragon will come,
    He will come to take me away .
    The street was empty, and the echo of their footsteps ricocheted between the rows of houses. Men dozed under fruit barrows, and horses slumbered by a line of caravans. On the steps outside a church, a man was sitting patiently with wakeful eyes, and, seeing him, Ulrich felt a wave of happiness. He said to Boris,
    ‘Soon we’ll go for a long walk, and I’ll tell