felt uncomfortable and a bit out of place in his presence. In a way, looking back on it, he dared me to reveal my innermost thoughts. It was as if he was challenging all the boundaries with his invitation to reveal to him what little I could about my experiences with boys.
With wide-eyed innocence, I looked back atHuntleyâs unlocking eyes and asked, âWell, what do you mean about
daring
?â
With his disarming manner, he prompted me with an example. âHave you kissed boys, sort of thing?â
Embarrassed and with an uncomfortable shrug of my shoulders, I replied, âNo, no. But Iâve played kiss-chase around the school playground.â
This revelation, that I had kissed a boy, although just in a game, was something that I wouldnât have wanted even my mum to find out about.
Huntley was moving in on his victim: me. Huntley wasnât your âabduct and assaultâ paedophile. Exerting control, for him, was a gradual process and the start of that process was his pushing at the door of opportunity by saying to me, âIâll tell you what, Hailey, why donât we go for a walk? And we can climb some trees, because youâve had a really boring life like me.â
Alarm bells started ringing in my head about how Mum would go mad if I disobeyed her, so I replied defensively, âWell, Iâm not allowed out of the end of the street!â
Huntley deftly defused my reply with his charm. âWell, you said earlier that you were allowed out of the street with an adult.â And then he pushed further, âArenât you?â
âYeah,â I replied.
The boundaries of safety and the protective custody of the street were being whittled away by Huntleyâsaccelerated grooming of me so as to get me out of the street and to some secluded spot where he could carry out his sick wishes. He was talking to me as if we were both 11 years old when he pulled me into his make-believe world by revealing, âMy mum, when I was your age, she was really strict, she wouldnât let me do anything, and itâs so unfair, isnât it?â
âWell, yes,â I had to agree.
All through our conversation I was sitting across the table from him. He was still, from time to time, gazing intently at the magazines. He didnât make any effort to conceal this from me; he had this particular one right open in front of him.
It was a Saturday and, by the look of him, he had decided it was a rest day, as I recall him having stubble on his chin; he was dressed in a T-shirt that was tucked into his jeans and he wore flat scruffy work shoes.
I remember looking at his hair and thinking, God, youâre not that much older than me. Although he had jet-black hair, there were sizeable grey streaks running through it. This gave me the impression that he was already turning grey. He had mucky hands. He didnât have aftershave on; he didnât use a body spray either.
When I went into the caravan that Saturday, there was dog hair everywhere and the musty smell of wet fur. Huntley had an Alsatian puppy called Sadie. It was the one Maxine Carr went on to keep after she wasreleased from her prison sentence for giving him his false alibi over the Soham murders.
Huntley then skilfully referred again to my life in the street, saying, âYouâve a bit of a boring life, havenât you? Your mum is really strict and so is your dad. They donât let you go out of the street.â
Then, cunningly, he threw a searching look at me as he probed further about what he had already touched on. âHave you ever climbed trees?â
Knowing how angry my mum would be if she caught me doing that, I warily replied, âNo. Iâm not allowed to climb trees.â
Returning to another of his themes, he said, âGod, youâve had a bit of a boring life, havenât you, kid?â
âWell, yeah. Yeah,â I replied nonchalantly.
âYeah, and you wouldnât