this talk about money.â
Alice walked Mrs. Brown to the door. âYou know, Mrs. Brown, about going to New York, Iâll come with you if you want. I know the city okay enough. I did an internship there three summers ago. Remember? Thatâs when I visited Granny here in Ashville before I went back home in August.â
While she carefully washed and dried her grandmotherâs sherry glasses, Alice reflected on Mrs. Brownâs resolution to save for a suit like Mrs. Grotonâs and then go all the way to New York to buy it.
It was weird, and it didnât make any sense to her.
Looking at the time, a bit before 11:00 P.M. , she figured that, given the time difference, her grandmother would be cleaning up after dinner in Vancouver and sitting down to read whatever book it was she was reading this week.
Alice telephoned, and Mrs. Fox answered on the first ring.
âWhatâs wrong, Alice? Itâs late for you with teaching early tomorrow morning.â
When it came to understanding Mrs. Brown, and keeping her word to her grandmother to support her, Alice was out of her element on this âgo-to-New-York-and-buy-a-dress thing,â as she called itâand would call it again many times over.
âI mean what, Granny, like, what the fuck, right? Itâs only a black jacket and dress. Itâs an effing suit. Whatâs that? So boring!â
âDonât swear, Alice, it isnât ladylike and much more is expected of a college-educated person,â Mrs. Fox said. âUse words that reflect your intelligence, not your slang.â
This was exasperating, but Alice pressed on. âYes, Granny, sorry. Big words. Coming right up. As polysyllabic as possible.â
Mrs. Fox laughed. She was slow if ever to admit it, but she enjoyed her youngest granddaughterâs punkish attitudesâsometimes.
âWhat donât you understand about a woman of a certain age wanting to step out of her shell and travel somewhere, in this case New York, where she has never been, and to buy a dress?â Mrs. Fox asked. âJust because it might be found online? And I would have thought youâd like this suit that Emilia is wanting. Itâs black, after all, your favorite color.â
âWell, yes, thereâs that. Itâs black, thatâs a plus, but donât they sell boring black dresses at Pennyâs?â Alice took a breath, and continued. âItâs a suit, Granny, it is utilitarian. It isnât fantastic, it wonât be pretty and it will be dull. No matter how well made it is. If sheâs going for something so expensive, there are lots of other dresses, beautiful dresses, red carpet dresses. Sheâs missing the opportunity to have something that makes her feel young and sexy, or is that the idea? Maybe she can get something thatâs great and gets her more attention, you know, from menâshe isnât too old for men, is she; people your age still do it, donât they, Granny? But with this suit, I donât get it, sheâll look like a lawyer. And she isnât a lawyer. Sheâs just a cleaning lady in a beauty shop.â
Mrs. Fox waited to respond. Itâs always best to let the young empty the tank when they are ranting. âI want to tell you something about women like Mrs. Brown, and like myself, really, living on small fixed incomes, weâd give anything to be accepted in a boardroom, if the fashion world only understood that. We donât all want to be sexpots, or cougars, or just covered up in droopy blouses and trousers. Thereâs also something alluring, very, very alluring about a dress that is perfectly correct. But in an effort to make my generation disappear, no one sells clothing that empowers us. Thereâs only ridicule, condescension, or dismissal.â
Alice had never thought about it this way. Could a really well-made suit dress be as much a fantasy for a woman as an evening gown or, in
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