give him the four-one-one.â
As it turned out she didnât have far to go. After leaving Amyâs room, Rebecca replaced the chart at the nurseâs station, then glanced to her left down the corridor and spotted a familiar pair of broad shoulders. He was staring through the glass doors that separated patient rooms from the newborn nursery.
She wondered how sheâd recognized him so quickly. Especially from the back. There was, of course, the exceptional butt. A part of the anatomy she hadnât truly appreciated when sheâd taken the course. Not until meeting Gabe had her opinion in that regard changed. And recognizing the folly of seeing him more than necessary, sheâd resolved to stay out of his way. Except, now she was on an errand for her patient.
She walked down the hall and stopped beside him. Lost in his own thoughts, he didnât say anything, but sheâd have given a lot to know what he was thinking, why the signs of sorrow were deeper on his face. Was this about his sisterâs baby? Theyâd never talked again about how the baby was conceived, who the father was, and that could be on his mind. Whatever was bothering him, she couldnât stand to see him look that way.
âGabe?â
He glanced at her and there was no warm, gooey expression that usually followed when someone looked at the babies. Gabeâs eyes were hard and there was a coldness that made her shiver.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âI hate hospitals.â
And that told her everything. He was thinking about Hannah. Losing her. And the patient rooms, long corridors and antiseptic environment reminded him of what heâd lost. She could tell him how many people were helped every day, how many were better off for medical intervention, but he wouldnât want to hear it. She thought about pointing out that the babies on the other side of these doors were thriving and healthy and would be going home to start their lives. The expression in his eyes dared her to say something optimistic so he could mock her.
Instead she said, âThen youâve got a problem.â
âHowâs that?â
âSince youâre building on to this one, you work here.â
âItâs different when itâs just a shell. Without people.â
âPeople benefit from the good work that happens within the walls you put up.â
âAnd a lot of bad happens,â he said.
She knew he couldnât let go of Hannah. âWe canât save everyone. But how many more people would be lost without the benefit of this facility and others like it?â
He blew out a long breath and met her gaze. âThat doesnât mean Iâll ever be comfortable here.â
âMost people arenât. I happen to find the environment invigorating as well as serene.â
âThen youâre a sick woman.â A hint of humor replaced the hardness in his eyes, and a smile took the sting from the words.
âThank you,â she said, then remembered her errand. âConsidering your aversion to hospitals, isnât it handy that I found you here.â
âWere you looking for me?â he asked.
She nodded. âYour sister asked me to.â
âHowâs she doing?â
âIâm discharging her.â
âOkay. Good,â he said, but the tone in his voice said the news was anything but.
âWhatâs going on? I thought you two connected and bonded earlier.â
âWe did. Itâs justââ He glanced at the newborns just beyond them.
âSheâs having a baby,â Rebecca guessed. âAnd thatâs a lot of responsibility.â
âSomething like that,â he admitted.
âIf you feel that way, imagine how scared she is.â
âI thought we already established that I donât have a clue about what sheâs feeling.â
âYou donât really have to. All she wants is for you to be there for her. Medical