Free Big Girls Drama by Tresser Henderson Page B

know, babe. I love you too.”
    â€œDo you?” he asked.
    â€œOf course, I do,” I said lifting my head to look at the outline of his face in the darkness.
    â€œI understand things have been a little weird lately, but please understand it has nothing to do with you.”
    I wanted to ask him what it had to do with, but I didn’t want to ruin the tranquil moment we were in right now. So I just listened.
    â€œDid you hear me?”
    â€œI did, Sheldon.”
    â€œDo you believe me?”
    Exhaling, I said, “Yes.”
    â€œI know you have a lot of fears, Viv, and I don’t want our relationship to be one of them. Like today at the restaurant, I know that bothered you.”
    â€œWhat made you think that?”
    He chuckled.
    â€œWhat you fail to realize is women like that waitress Hailey are always trying me. They are wondering how a woman like me managed to snag a man like you.”
    â€œA woman like you? What does that mean?” he asked.
    â€œCome on, babe. I’m a plus-size sister, and you cut to the max. Hell, you can be Morris Chestnut’s body double.”
    â€œFirst of all, Morris Chestnut is bald, and I have dreads. Second, I think I’m better looking than him,” he joked.
    â€œYou are right.”
    â€œYou’re just agreeing because I’m your husband.”
    â€œYou are my sexy husband who I adore.”
    â€œI adore you too.”
    As much as I would like to think I got over my insecurities about being the size I am, I wasn’t past it at all. If anything, being married to such an attractive man made me feel even more insecure about myself. I didn’t know what I needed to do to change my perception of myself, but I knew I needed to do something quickly before I allowed my insecurities to ruin my marriage. I’d pushed him away before. I didn’t want to do that again now that I was his wife. I had to understand he chose me, and this was an equal exchange of love and affection. But deep down, I couldn’t help but wonder if he ever believed he was doing me a favor by being with me.
    â€œYou are a very attractive man, Sheldon. You can’t tell me you haven’t been hit on since we’ve gotten married.”
    â€œI’m not interested in any other woman, babe. I’ve told you that.”
    â€œI hope not.”
    â€œWhat do you mean? You’re saying that like you think I have some side piece or something.”
    â€œDo you?” I asked.
    â€œHell no. Do you have another man?” he retorted.
    â€œOf course not, Sheldon.”
    â€œOkay, then, this subject needs to be squashed.”
    â€œI know you love me, but I’m always scared someone else will come along and take you away from me. And, of course, I’m going to think it has to do with the way I look.”
    â€œThere is nothing wrong with the way you look. I hate that you are always so down on yourself. If anything, that makes you unattractive.”
    His words hurt. Was it already starting, me pushing him away by my negative opinions of myself?
    â€œSociety makes me put down myself.”
    â€œBut you don’t have to feed into it. You need to love you. You don’t need to worry about society, babe.”
    â€œThat’s easier said than done, Sheldon.”
    â€œI’m trying to love you for the two of us. If you can’t love you, then I’m going to love you more than ever, because then, I will be loving a woman who’s grown to understand her value. You are worth so much, babe. You just need to see that within yourself,” Sheldon said thoughtfully.
    I smiled at his empathetic words.
    â€œI’m sorry I’ve been feeling this way. We’ve seemed distant lately. Our communication has been less, and our sexual connection has been damn near nonexistent. Of course, I’m going to fear you finding someone else. Especially with your high sex drive.”
    He chuckled as he said,