Free Stranger by Megan Hart Page A

isn’t it.” I watched him study his can as if it was going to tell him something secret.
    He looked at me. “Yeah. Damn. Grace, I know it shouldn’t—”
    “It’s okay if it does, Jared. A big part of our job is compassion.”
    “It doesn’t bother you,” he said. “I mean…does it?”
    “Her being so young, you mean?” The cold bubbles tickled my throat and made me cough.
    Coffee would’ve been better, but that was all the way upstairs.
    “Yeah. And…the kids. I saw the little girl when she was with Shelly and you were still talking to the husband. I came upstairs after I brought Mrs. Davis in and she was there. She was what, maybe three?”
    “Yes, I think so.”
    “It doesn’t bother you,” Jared repeated.

    “It’s part of the job, Jared. My job is to make this as easy as possible for her husband and family, and to make sure she’s taken care of.”
    He rubbed at his eyes and tossed back some soda. “Yeah. I know. You’re right. It’s just hard, sometimes. Isn’t it?”
    I thought of the conversation I’d had so recently with Dan Stewart. “It’s sad, sure.”
    Jared shook his head. “Not just sad.”
    “Do you want me to finish her by myself?” I asked, generously, I thought.
    “No. I need the hours and it’s not like I won’t ever have to face this again.” He looked up at me. “But…how do you do it, Grace? How do you not let it bother you so much you can’t do it, but keep that compassion?”
    “I find a way to put it away at the end of the day,” I told him.
    “Like…?”
    “Like it’s a job,” I said. “Which it is. You have to find a way to be able to put it away at the end of the day.”
    “Even if you get a death call two hours after the end of the day?” Jared grinned.
    “Even then.” I finished my soda and tossed the can into the recycling bin.
    “So, what do you do?” he asked on the way back to the embalming room.
    What did I do? I went out and paid men to fulfill my fantasies. “I read a lot.”
    Jared snorted under his breath. “Maybe I should take up knitting.”
    “You could do that.” We worked together for a bit longer. He didn’t need a lot of instruction. “You’re going to make a really good funeral director, Jared. Did I tell you that?”
    He looked up from what he was doing. “Thanks.”
    We finished without any more philosophical discussion, but when he left that night, I thought more about what I’d said. My tumultuous relationship with Ben had ended with spectacular horrendousness. He wanted to get married. I didn’t, and not because I didn’t love him. Ben had been very easy to love. In fact, I’d assumed, as he had, that someday we’d get married and have some kids. Do the family thing.
    I believed in love. Believed marriages worked. My parents were still happily married after forty-three years, and in my work I saw many families bound together by the strength of their devotion to one another.
    I’d been around the dead my entire life, but it had never hit so close to home until I started my internship with my dad. I arranged memorials and talked with priests, ministers and rabbis in order to help the grieving families who came to us send off their loved ones in whatever way they deemed fit. Funerals weren’t for the dead, but the living, after all. I overheard arguments between warring family members who wanted different levels of religion in the service, and assisted with preparations for nondenominational services, too. I listened to the prayers of hundreds of mourners, and though the method in which they prayed might differ, or the specific deity they implored to care for the deceased, one thing was the same. People wanted to believe their loved one was heading off to someplace beyond this one.
    But they were wrong. The dirt fell on the coffins the same way, every time, no matter if it was a plain pine box or a casket costing thousands of dollars. The body inside eventually became dust and even the memories of the person