Florida Canyon. Yellow petrol can, everything the same. The only difference was that nobody got to that suicide with a fire-extinguisher. There was nothing left but ashes, believe me. It took us two weeks to identify the victim. A store assistant from Sears. No connection with your fiancée whatsoever, apart from the mode of demise.â
Lloyd climbed shakily out of the freezing-cold car into the grilling heat of the downtown sun.
âTake it easy,â Sergeant Houk told him, leaning across the front seat. âThrow yourself into your work, maybe. A lot of people find that helps.â
âThanks for the tip,â Lloyd replied, though Sergeant Houk didnât hear the sarcasm in his voice.
âAnd if anything occurs to you . . . any conceivable reason why Ms Williams might have wanted to take her own life . . . even if it was nothing more than premenstrual tension, well, youâll call me, yes?â
âFor sure,â Lloyd told him.
He crossed the dazzling white car-park. He was conscious that Sergeant Houk was watching him as he went. He unlocked his BMW and climbed in, and sat for a while with his eyes closed, and repeated the words of Allen Ginsbergâs Kaddish:
There, rest. No more suffering for you. I know where youâve gone, and itâs good.
He didnât see the girl in the raincoat standing on the opposite side of Broadway, staring at him, unmoving, her yellow scarf flapping in the warm harbour wind, her upswept sunglasses reflecting two dazzling points of light.
Six
When he arrived back at North Torrey, he was surprised and annoyed to find a metallic red Lincoln Continental parked in his driveway. He drew into the kerb, climbed out of his BMW, and cautiously approached the Lincoln across the lawn, jingling his car-keys in his hand.
As he came closer, he saw that a balding man of about sixty-five was sitting in the driverâs seat, and next to him was sitting a white-rinsed woman in a purple-and-white blouse and more gold necklaces and bangles and brooches than Nefertiti. Lloyd tapped with his knuckle on the window, and both of them beamed at him.
âHi there! You must be Otto,â the white-haired man greeted him, letting down his window. He held out his hand, still beaming.
Lloyd said. âIâm sorry, sir. I think you have the wrong house. This is 4884 North Torrey.â
The man frowned, and unfolded a pair of heavy-rimmed spectacles. He fished a well-folded letter out of his shirt pocket, and examined it closely. âThatâs right. Thatâs the address Iâm looking for. 4884 North Torrey.â
âWell, Iâm afraid thereâs no Otto here,â Lloyd told him. âNever has been, to my knowledge.â
âOh, Iâm sorry,â the man answered. âWe werenât actually looking for Otto. We were looking for CeliaâCelia Williams?â
âYouâre friends of hers?â asked Lloyd.
The man laughed, and the woman joined in. âYou could say that. Do you happen to know where we might find her? Weâve driven all the way from San Clemente this morning, and weâve been waiting here for almost an hour.â
Lloyd rubbed the back of his neck. âIâm afraid I have some pretty bad news for you.â
âDonât tell me sheâs gone off on one of her lecture tours?â said the woman. âOh, Wayne . . . I told you to call first.â
âWhat kind of surprise would it have been if Iâd called first?â the man demanded.
âIt would have saved us two hours on the freeway, for goodnessâ sake.â
The woman gave Lloyd a fixed grin, and asked, âDo you happen to know if sheâs going to be away for very long?â
âMaâam,â said Lloyd, and he couldnât stop his throat from tightening nor the tears from prickling his eyes. âIâm sorry to tell you that Celia died yesterday.â
The man and the woman stared at him with