too. My mood is shot now. Suddenly Iâm all jelly inside. My father went and left me with this nosy venomous woman and I have to carry her on my back. An only child. Everybodyâs favorite target. They were too busy sleeping at night to have time to make me a brother. Iâll show that little darkie yet. When the right moment comes Iâll turn off that heater and fire her. My moodâs shot to hell. And outside itâs cloudy again and everyoneâs beeping their horns the trafficâs moving at a crawl the whole worldâs in a rush maybe Iâll find some peace there in the prison.
Thank God that Haifa is at least a pretty town they havenât managed to ruin it yet. Screened by pine trees that help filter out the general filth. I drive along the ridge of the Carmel into the forest ocean down below on either side bathing my eyes in the green air eddying over the lush wadis.
Everyone knows me here at the prison Iâm not even asked for my papers. These past few months Iâve spent whole days here if ever Iâm imprisoned myself I can ask the judge for time off retroactively from my sentence.
What bedlam. Every other door is unlocked the jailers just jingle their keys for formâs sake and then wonder why prisoners escape. Escape isnât the word they just have to open the door and walk out.
An old Druse jailer brings me to a dark cubbyhole itâs a good thing there are still Druse and Cherkesses to keep order in this country my young murderer sits waiting by a bare wooden table short slender and sullen but very muscular when he was still in handcuffs the first time I met him I noticed how easily he stretched them. I shake his hand. God is my witness that Iâve tried to like him but heâs an unfriendly fantasizing type to top it all off they found some marijuana in his house.
âWhatâs doing?â He looks at me with his mousy eyes.
âIs everything all right?â
He nods.
I toss my attaché case on the table I sit across from him I leaf through the file that I practically know by heart. The forty thousand pounds that Iâve gotten so far from his family have barely covered the ink and paper that Iâve wasted on him.
âHave you heard anything from that uncle of yours ... that diamond dealer in Belgium?â
âHeâs supposed to arrive any day.â
âHeâs been supposed to arrive for three months now. Apparently heâs decided to come from Belgium on foot.â
He gives me a hard sullen stare. I should know by now that I have to be careful with my jokes here.
I begin to ask a few questions going over once more details of his testimony about the great day in his life that Iâve lived every minute of and know better by now than any day in my own. Thatâs my secret strategy for his defense Iâll break time down under the legal microscope into its tiniest particles Iâll wage war over each second. The prosecution has no idea whatâs in store for it. Iâve catalogued the minutes one by one and Iâll prove that he couldnât have done it. This trial will yet be a textbook case to be studied with astonishment and awe. It was Kedmi who first taught us to think in milliseconds...
I interrogate him and he answers briefly and to the point. Heâs a lone wolf all that damn day he hardly talked to anyone but stupid heâs not. I already know all his answers I simply have to polish them here and there to put him through his paces once again. I want this trial in the worst possible way. Just the look of him is suspicious at least let him be clear and precise. But whatâs the truth? Iâm still groping in the dark for it. Itâs enough to make me despair. The truth is hiding inside his skull like some wriggly slimy gray worm letâs hope the prosecution canât get at it either.
The old jailer comes into the room with a note.
âAdvocate Yisraâel Degmi? Your secretary