out if he ever makes it out to Tacoma and what the hell am I thinking ?
Yeah, my parents would really permit that. A date with some older guy I met at a comic book convention.
They wonât even let me visit my own sister .
Itâs clear Clayton isnât here, so I stomp off to find my guide. I half expect Duquette to be long gone, but I see him talking to a tall, strange-looking man. At first I think the guy is dressed like Frankensteinâs monster, but then realize heâs just really ugly. Iâm about to interrupt when Zak raises his voice. I canât make out his angry words, but the man shoves him in the chest, hard enough that he stumbles. The creepy guy storms off.
I rush to Duquette to berate him for clowning around and wasting time.
âAre you okay, Zak?â I hear myself say.
Duquette looks up, surprised to see me here. âIt was nothing.â
Then get your ass in gear, we have to find Clayton, not stand around . . .
Once again, my mouth interrupts. âAre you sure? He hit you kind of hard.â
He wonât look at me. âThat was Cyrax,â he says, as if that explains something. He begins walking quickly.
âZak, what was that all about?â my mouth insists on saying.
âJust a guy,â he says, his voice squeaking nervously. âThere was some unpleasantness at Con-viction last year.â
âGo on.â I really need my mouth to shut up soon .
Zak rubs the back of his neck. âWell . . . it was just one of those things, I guess. It was late, I went out to pick up some supplies, and Cyrax and some of his friends . . . they jumped me.â
Weâve walked in front of an empty table. I grab Duquette by the arm to stop him. âAre you kidding? Why?â
He shrugs, a hurt, embarrassed look on his face. âItâs hard to say with those guys. I was alone, weak. Took allmy money, left me out of commission for a few days.â
Iâm utterly horrified, both at the senseless attack and Zakâs blasé way of talking about it. âDid you call the police? I canât believe they even let him into this place!â
He wonât look at me. âWhat could they do? These things happen. At any rate, heâs never let me forget it. Every time I see him, he reminds me.â He hisses through his teeth. âFrack, just like it was yesterday, lying there on the road, too weak to get up, not even a potion of healing on me . . .â
I am reaching out to give him a comforting squeeze of the hand when I realize what Iâm hearing. âDuquette? When he beat you up . . . was it in a video game?â
âNo, of course not.â He paused. âDungeons and Dragons. You see, James was the dungeon master andââ
I hold up a palm, trying to think of the best way to demonstrate what Iâm now feeling. âDuquette, despite your best efforts, I find that you donât disgust me as much as previously. But I donât have time for your imaginary world, and your imaginary pain.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
I remember watching my sister walk off into the foggy Tacoma evening, knowing somehow that Iâd never see her again. âIt means that some of us have enough real pain in our lives that we donât need to invent more. You donât know what thatâs like.â
Iâm not prepared for his reaction. His eyes narrow. That funny smile, that devil-may-care grin vanishes. And suddenly Iâm looking at the most angry teen I think Iâve ever seen. And heâs angry with me.
âWhat did you say?â The words come out as a slow hiss, deadly as a gas leak.
âZak . . .â
Our eyes lock, and just for a second, I realize thereâs something more to Zak Duquette than the guy who never stops laughing and never takes anything seriously. God knows why, but thereâs real pain in his face.
Just as Iâm about to apologize (though Iâm not sure