and repeated this to the paramedics, to the emergency room, and once again to Quiola, who showed up at St. Matthews, furious.
âYou said the same thing this morning. From now on, I donât believe you. And youâre not driving yourself anywhere.â
C.C. stood up. âLetâs go. The less time I spend here, the better.â Then she made a wry face. âIâm not driving, without a car. You should have seen the Heap. Crumbled like tin foil. Totaled. And I couldnât have been doing more than thirty.â
âWhat happened? They didnât tell me, other than that you were all right.â
âStupidest thing. I feel so dumb. I was driving back home. I was fine. I mean it. At our usual exit off the highway, I just passed out. Next thing I know, this nice man is talking at me but I canât hear him over my horn. It was stuck. So was the car. Iâd driven right off the ramp and into a tree.â
âJesus.â
âWish I couldâve seen it,â she added. âMust have been a sight!â
âYou,â said Quiola, pulling on to the highway, just as C.C. had done earlier. âYou are a menace.â
âOnly to myself. Iâm grateful you werenât in the car. You might have been hurt.â
âMe? If Iâd been in that car with you, I would have been driving and none of this wouldâve happened. Whereâd they take what was left of the Heap?â
âOver to Mikeâs garage. Heâll be impressed.â
âOr pissed. Heâs worked hard to keep that old thing running for you.â
âIâll miss her, wonât I? Never find another Heap like that.â
âA blessing, if you ask me. That car was twenty years old.â
âI like them well-seasoned.â
âYeah â unlike your girlfriends.â
Stung to quick tears, C.C. said, âWhere did
that
come from?â
âSorry. I really am. I just â youâve scared me. First you say chemo isnât worth the effort, and then you fly off the road. I just â it just came out.â
âIt was cruel.â
âI know.â
For a few moments they drove up the highway in a guilty, bruised silence. As they neared the off-ramp where C.C.âs car had died that morning, Quiola picked up speed. Neither of them spoke again until they were off the highway and pulling into the shedâs drive. Thatâs when C.C. said,
âOf course it is also true.â
âWhat is?â
âWhat you said. Cruel or not, itâs true. All my girlfriends were young. Including you. Not well-seasoned at all.â
Quiola smiled, leaned across the gearshift and gave her ex a long, reminiscent kiss. âThere,â she said. âA bit of spice.â
C.C. laughed. âYowza.â
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âIâve never done this before,â murmured Quiola, her long hair veiling her face. April 1978. After a Legal Seafood supper, and several drinks, C.C. finally persuaded the young editorial intern sheâd been wooing to come over to her large studio on the first floor of a Cambridge brownstone, not far from the Riverbed Press, then in itâs heyday, which is why C.C. had introduced herself to Arthur Rivers, owner and publisher, on Lizâs behalf. Rivers had agreed to arrange for a Moore catalogue raisonné, along with a short biography Liz would commission â if she was going to discovered at last, she said, let someone get the story right. The instant C.C. had laid eyes on Quiola, sheâd begun a strategic seduction: after hours, a casual drink; a week later, a select luncheon spot; tonight, champagne (which sheâd been chilling for almost a month, in hope). She sat down on the only place anyone could sit in that apartment, on her large caramel-colored sofa bed. She toed off her loafers, kicked them out of the way, and tucked her feet up. Sheâd worn khaki pants and a black blouse because she thought the