he knew, ignoring those he didnât know. He lushed the double down in four swallows, paid the tab, and stumbled off the stool and out of the door, fucked up at last.
âMannnn,â one of the regulars leaned across the bar to comment to Sly Bob. âWhatâs happeninâ with âLijah? I ainât never seen him to down like that.â
Sly Bob watched Elijah bump into the side of the door frame on his way out. âAinât no tellinâ whatâs goinâ down. Lotsa shit be happeninâ secretly in a dudeâs life sometimes. Some shit be so deep that you canât do nothinâ but weep ân drink.â
The regular, a player and a tender heart himself, reached over and slapped Bobâs fat palm lightly.
âRight on, brother! righteous on!â
Elijah trudged up the dim steps to his apartment, stumbling from time to time, drunk, but still careful to keep his hand on his knife on the dark staircase.
For the second time he felt shock opening his door. Leelah lowered the confession magazine and held the joint she was smoking out to him.
âFrom the looks of you, I donât guess this would do anything to you,â she said, and scooched her back up a little higher on the pillow.
Elijah reached behind him and missed the door with his first move, kicked it closed instead.
He did a little superstraight stutter step over to the high iron railing at the bottom of the bed.
He stood looking down at Leelah on the bed, her royal blue robe slit open to the thigh, not sure of whether he wanted to strangle her or jump on top of her and start humping like a love-crazed Congolese gorilla.
âLeelah, whereâve you been and where is all my stuff?â he asked evenly, trying not to slur.
She laid the magazine on her stomach, took a long hit on the smoke and answered coldly, âYou got moâ nerve than a brass-assed monkey, askinâ me where Iâve been! Thatâs what I oughta be askinâ you!â
Elijah, seeing the dangers in trying to make something of the fact that they hadnât been in the same space for a couple days almost, decided to stay with more concrete questions. âDamn where anybodyâs been! What happened to all the stuff we had in here?â
âWhat the fuck do you think happened?â
Elijah started around the side of the bed, no longer shocked or puzzled, just angry now.
âDonât be playinâ games with me, woman!â he snarled.
She smiled indulgently at his blustering behavior and sucked on the joint again before answering.
âAwwww, you know I sold that shit, âLijah. You donât have to stand there wolfinâ at me. I ainât scared oâ you, and you know it.â
He took a couple deep breaths, cooling himself out, satisfied that they had it all back together again.
She passed the half-smoked tuskie to his outstretched fingers.
âUhh, well, you know ⦠I thought ⦠I thought, with all the shit goinâ on these days that maybe somebody had kidnapped you and ripped us off too.â
Leelahâs laughter shook the bed and forced tears out of her eyes. âElijah! Elijah Brookes, the first! hahhh hahhh! hahhh! stop! please stop! hahhh hahhh hahhhaaahh! you âbout fulla shit as a Christmas turkey!â
Elijah permitted himself a slight smile, realizing that she was right.
âHow much we get? Browney take everything?â
âYep, everything, for six bills.â
He passed the roach to her with an incredulous look on his face. âSix bills!? Six suits was worth six bills.â
âWell, actually I got seven,â she purred at him, pushing the magazine off her stomach as she arched her back yawning, âbut I bought a few things, and I copped a liâl taste for us. You want some?â
âYeahh, yeah, I could dig some. Whoâd you cop from?â
âChink,â she answered as she reached down under the side of the bed for