my mouth to fabricate a smile. âThank God youâre open; I couldnât have made it much farther.â
âAre you on your way home?â
âNo, Iâm going to my grandmotherâs place on Rue Dorien. I donât have power, but she does.â
The woman glances out the window and shakes her head sympathetically. âYou must be freezing. Can I lend you a sweater?â She takes in my dripping hair. âOr a towel?â
âDonât bother with that. Can I get some coffee, some hot food? What do you have?â
She shrugs her shoulders. âSorry, no. We ran out hours ago and nothingâs open I can get to. Booze only.â
Before I beseech her to ransack her cupboards and find somethingâanythingâto eat, she reaches behind the counter and pulls out a package of chips and some peanuts wrapped in ancient cellophane. At this point Iâll take anything to staunch the ache in my stomach. As I rip open the package of chips, a voice floats up from the end of the bar.
âA hot toddy is whatâs needed on a night like this. Nothing else drives away the winter spirits quite as well.â His speech has a brittle quality, like the sound of glass breakingâall shards and broken points.
Iâd forgotten about the man at the table. He scrapes back his chair, reaches into his pocket, and tosses a five on the bar. My heart sinks. Please donât talk to me. He glances at the mouseywoman behind the bar and ignores me. âDo you know how to make one?â
Without waiting for an answer he says, âTwo ounces of liquor. I prefer rum to whisky but double that amount on a night like this. Mix in a teaspoon of honey and the juice of a quarter lemon. You have that at least?â
She nods. âLemon juice in a bottle.â
âTop it offwith hot water and make sure the glass is good and hot before you put it in,â he grunts. To me, he says, âYouâll join me.â
I struggle to come up with a quick excuse, but Iâm not leaving the warmth of this bar just yet. I donât have the energy for an argument and something about him frightens me. I decide not to challenge him. Iâll be polite yet distant.
He moves over to a small table near the bar and holds out a chair for me. Faking a tight smile, I shrug off my parka and take the proffered chair. Itâs the one next to the wall. Iâll have to push past him when I want to leave. I take it anyway. A pair of kid gloves is tucked into the side flap of my purse. I pull them on to warm my hands and put a little more distance between my bare skin and the germs that I imagine stick to the patterned oilcloth.
He drapes his army surplus coat over the back of his chair and sets his glass down, half empty. Thereâs a folded newspaper on the table. I get a better look at him when he sits down across from me and I realize heâs not as old as Iâd initially assumed, early forties at most. A rather dull face. But what big ears and eyes he has! It makes his entire countenance appear oddly distorted. His hair and eyebrows are a spiky brown-grey and his skin has a pale, almost translucent quality. He doesnât spend much time outdoorsâeither that or heâs been ill. He gives me the once-over, his eyes dropping to the outline of my breasts. I cross my arms over my chest, grateful for the bulky shirt I wear over my turtleneck.
âWe take the weather for granted.â He mumbles this, revealing a set of large teeth with long, prominent canines.
A noise. I jump at the sound but it turns out to be Mousy scurrying over with my drink. Sheâs wrapped a tea towel around the glass to keep it hot. She flashes me a quick roll of her eyes, a signal from woman to woman that says That guy. What a loser. I donât trade glances with her, offended sheâd think we had anything in common.
I put my hands around the glass and find it blessedly hot while I try to think of some way to