Free Secrets of the Women's Self-Bondage Cult by Jurgen von Stuka

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           All of this helped me with my own SB direction. Without these candid opportunities, I doubt I'd be as happy as I am now with the entire concept of SB.

Chapter Five
    This chapter perhaps logically follows the previous one.
    While there is more and more exposure to the lives of male Transvestites, little is known about women who have the same desires. Paula talks about the element of gender-switching while in SB and how it affects her fantasies.
    Paula - Female TV in bondage
           It has always seemed to me that the sexual nuances of tying myself up are based in some unknowable formula that changes with time and location. For me, the most essential element in all of this is having a fertile imagination. Whatever the reality at the time might be, lying on a bed or hanging suspended while tied and gagged can be the transport medium for an entirely different scenario…in your mind.
           While I know that it is quite common for men and women to fantasize about someone else in their personal masturbatory activities, I have always found it difficult to insert a known individual in the place where my head and body are going when I begin such a venture. I realize that is a confusing statement.
           Putting this a slightly different way, it has always seemed to me that imagining a totally fictitious person works better than thinking about a real one. I have no idea why, but as I am securing the ropes around my ankles and wrists, I am not imagining that I am a person I know. Rather, in this game, I create in my mind some hybrid character, much like a writer creates the characters in a novel. For me, because I am a very private woman, inevitably, I often envision myself as a man who is being involuntarily forced into womanhood by evil and dangerous male or female parties who will tie her up and sexually abuse her as long as she, (or I), can endure or have time for.
           So, in my fantasy self-bondage world, the gender element plays a critical role. Being bound as me seems, at times, worthless and unstimulating. However, being bound as an imaginary male, with an imaginary male or female doing the binding is far more rewarding. This may seem strange if you are not inclined to fantasize during sex or if self-bondage is foreign to you. It may also seem odd to anyone who has gone down the same sexual road for so long that anything different in their sex life is unacceptable. Yet, there is enough evidence, I think, to support the position that gender-shifting and self-bondage often go hand in hand. Purely masochistic self-bondage of course, has its own place in the scene, but for me at least, I want and enjoy the mix of gender switching and bondage. To take this one step further into the seldom-mentioned areas of auto-eroticism, it's accurate to say that being dressed as a man, tightly tied or chained, gagged and blindfolded is, for me at least, the best and most satisfying way to have an orgasm.
           For those who cannot comprehend how this works, consider the analogy of sexual partners or individuals who habitually masturbate while visualizing another person as their partner. This may be the best example of how this works. The gender-switching, self-bondager switches mentally into the body of a male being bound and tormented while the conventional individual fantasizes having sex with someone else of the same or opposite gender. In both cases, an imaginary character plays a distinct role in reaching climax. Adding the restraint simply enhances and intensifies the experience. I often visualize that I am an attractive young man who is being systematically tormented and raped by a merciless woman.
           Not making any excuses for my SB, I must add here that from everything I have read and discovered about this, it is a far more common practice than anyone would imagine. I do not know the psychology behind it and if I did I probably wouldn't