away. Iâve recruited my older son here to help me.â
I feel my cheeks flush. I smile weakly and feel myself straighten up and adopt something like a cocky, frat-boy stance to up my masculinity quotient. OK, so itâs a knee-jerk reaction of slight panic, more to reassure myself than anyone else. Iâm wearing jeans, a North Carolina Tar Heels sweatshirt under a khaki windbreaker and Sperry deck sneakers, so itâs not as though I look like Iâm in the road company of La Cage or something, but, frankly, Iâm standing in a womenâs formal dress shop in Fuquay Varina on a weekday morning. Also, Iâm unemployed and unloved, so Iâm not exactly at full mast of the masculine ideal I try to project to the world at large. Fortunately, Iâm six one, which, in North Carolina, often prompts people to say, âHey, I bet you played basketball!â; in New York, they just think, âGod, I hope he doesnât sit in front of me at the theater.â
âNow what did you have in mind, honey?â Mavis Bunce asks Mother.
âWell, to tell you the truth, I just donât know. Iâve been looking and just canât seem to find anything â¦â
âWhat color are the bridesmaidsâ dresses?â Mavis asks, clearly in sales mode, a seasoned pro.
âMidnight blue with black piping.â
âOK. And do you know what the mother of the bride is wearing?â
âPurple. Which is good, because purple is not my color.â
âOK. Iâve got something real pretty in a teal green color, just come in yesterday. Be real pretty with your dark hair and your peachy coloring and your blue eyes.â
âWell, I have never worn greens well at all,â Mother says, in the tone of dread normally used for saying something like âIâm so sick, I believe I might die tonight.â
âMother, just look at it,â I say. âYou wonât know until you see it.â
Now Mavis Bunce will see that I am a player in this decision, and from here on out will have to allow for my input and comments. I was not meant to stand on the sidelines where fashion is concerned, particularly as it relates to my mother.
âItâs real pretty, honey,â Mavis says, her tone encouraging.
âWell, Iâll have a look, but I donât know about green â¦â
Suddenly, I realize what my motherâs internal conflict behind this inability to find a mother-of-the-groom dress actually is: her three favorite colors, the only colors she feels look good on her, are black, white, and red. I feel the proverbial cartoon lightbulb pop on over my sandy-blond head: I get it now. Black is out for a day wedding; white is out also, of course, and, knowing her, she would think red is too flashy. OK, Iâm ready to work.
Mavis produces the teal-colored dress she was championing, draping it flat over her skinny arms. It is very ⦠well, it is just so teal . It would be a good color on me, I think, though not in an evening gown.
âI donât really think thatâs right for me,â Mother says, feeling the fabric.
âLet me go check on some things in the back for you, honey. You just look around and see if anything strikes you.â Mavis scurries like a tough little scrub hen to the back of the store.
âThat dress looked like Grand Ole Opry to me,â Mother whispers. âYour daddy would say it was something Dolly Parton would wear, I can just hear him.â
âI wish you had come up to New York to do this, Mother,â I say. âWe could have gone to Bergdorfâs.â I stop short of saying how fabulous I think that would have been.
âWhich would have cost as much as the entire wedding, probably,â Mother says, and Iâm not sure if she is talking about a trip to New York or a dress we might have been able to find for her at Bergdorfâs. Suddenly, I think about Fifth Avenue, and get a little pang