Bri?â
âOkay.â
âShouldnât take too long.â
Bob strolled away with the cop as if he was off to buy a loaf of bread.
Eric and Norm had been watching from the office. They were full of questions as I walked towards them.
âWhat do the coppers want with Superstud, Bri?â
âI bet I bloody know,â declared Eric. âTheyâve arrested him for growinâ marijuana in his vegie patch. The old Supers is a drug baron!â
âNo,â said Norm. âTheyâve caught him knockinâ off knickers from a clothesline.â
âItâs about Cusack,â I said.
âWhat about him?â
âHe got hit by a car.â
âHoly shit.â
âBobâs going to drive his truck back.â
âIs he all right?â said Norm.
âNo ⦠heâs dead.â
âHoly shit,â Eric repeated.
I told them the story. Norm winced at the part about him bouncing off the windscreen.
âI didnât like the man,â he said, âbut I wouldnât have wished this on anyone.â
It was such an unreal feeling for me. Two hours back Cusack was his usual angry, obnoxious self. It was so easy to dislike him then. Now I only felt sorry for him.
âYou never can tell, can you?â Norm said. âYou say goodbye to someone and you think youâll see them again for sure. You donât even think about it really. Not a second thought. But then â¦â He snapped his fingers. âAh well, thatâs the way it goes.â
Eric had this way of jamming his lips together and jutting them out as he nodded. He did it this time, as if agreeing with Norm. But then he said, âI wonât be losinâ any sleep over him. Bloody shitbag, he was. Couldnât have happened to a nicer bloke.â
Mum was there in the morning, completely different from the night before. The anger had gone and her eyes were lit up like a kid on Christmas morning. She was full of plans.
âI havenât slept a wink all night, Brian. Iâve got some brilliant ideas. Can I tell you?â
She was talking fast and loud.
âBut first Iâm sorry about yesterday. Forget that ever happened. Iâm really sorry. Joseph did me a big favour. Iâm still angry with him, but I refuse to let it get me down. Iâm going to be positive. I needed to get out of that job. It was stifling me. I needed to get out and Iâd be still talking about it if he hadnât forced the issue. If I ever see that customer Iâll kiss him. It was all the frustration â four yearsâ worth just blew up yesterday. Iâm really sorry you had to take the brunt of it. But thatâs over. Finito.â
She paused for breath and I jumped in.
âOne of the vendors got killed last night. He was hit by a car.â
âOh dear â¦â
There must be a userâs manual â Sad Words for Dummies â that tells you what youâre expected to say when someone dies. Itâs all empty stuff, but thereâs not much else you can say. Mum had read the manual well. She made some clicking noises with her tongue, then rattled it off.
âWas he very old?â
âDid he have any kids? A wife?â
âItâs always such a tragedy when these things happen. You wonder why it happens, and how their families cope.â
I wanted to tell her what Cusack was like. What the cop said. What Eric said. How Bob had gone off to get the truck. How the words the body freaked me out. Like heâs not a person any more. Heâs nothing. Just the body . I wanted to tell her how I felt â I couldnât be sad for him because he was an idiot, but I knew I was sad. But was it for Cusack or for me? Death had always seemed so far off before. It only happened to other people. Before.
Mum gave it a few momentâs silence â token respect for the dead â then pasted on a smile.
âThereâs no use dwelling