counter, then seemed to regret the outburst. âLindsay, would you listen to reason? I canât marry you. I just canât do it. Marriage ruins everythingâI know that from experience. Youââ
âDonât, please.â
He advanced toward her, then stopped. âFine,â he said, his voice cold, âif thatâs the way you want it.â
âIâm afraid it is.â
âYouâll be back,â he said. âUntil then, all I can do is wait.â He slammed the door on his way out of her apartment.
Afterward Lindsay sat, mulling over their conversation, her arms wrapped around her knees. A chill spread down her arms that had nothing to do with the air-conditioned room. His bitter words about marriage echoed in her ears; so did his claim that sheâd change her mind, that sheâd come back. He seemed to think sheâd eventually be willing to accept him on his terms, willing to give up her own dreams.
Lindsay bit into her lower lip, and hugged her legs all the harder.
It did no good to relive the same old arguments. The furniture in her uncleâs showroom might come with a guarantee, but life didnât. Neither did marriage. But Monteâs divorce had destroyed any possibility of his taking a second chance on commitment. Nothing she could say or do would be enough to reassure him.
For two years, Lindsay had believed that Monte would see the light and realize that she wasnât his ex-wife. Because she was stubborn, and because she loved him, sheâd refused to accept defeat. His marriage, brief as it was, had forever marked him. Monte was incapable of giving her anything more than he already had.
Maddy had said it on their vacation. Either she take what he was offering or end the relationship.
Lindsay had made her decision. One thing was certain; she had to stay away from him. Her love for him made her too vulnerable. He would fight to preserve their relationship, and heâd work at wearing her down, the same way he had before.
Leaning back, she closed her eyes and reviewed her options. A new career, returning to college, starting her own businessâ¦. Unexpectedly she remembered her visit to Buffalo Valleyâand her conversation with Hassie Knight. She smiled. Hassie hadnât come right out and said it, but without a teacher Buffalo Valley was doomed. That was the answer Lindsay sought. She would take the job; obviously, the town needed herâ¦and perhaps she needed it.
Lindsay had minored in education and could apply for a teaching certificate in North Dakota. She had an opportunity to make a difference. A yearâsheâd give Buffalo Valley a year of her life. In a twelve-month period, they could locate and hire a permanent replacement for the high-school position. Sheâd fill in, and those twelve months would give her the distance she needed from Monte.
A chance like this didnât happen every day. Her roots were in this dying townâher familyâs heritageâand it was within her power to help. At the same time, sheâd be saving herself from the agony of a dead-end relationship.
And, she thought with growing excitement, she could move into her grandparentsâ home. It was pretty dilapidatedâno wonder it hadnât sold. She recalled the peeling paint, the broken porch steps and falling-down fence. But she could get it fixed up, and sheâd have a free place to live if she took the job. The house would be a connection to her past, while teaching school could be her future.
Sheâd do it. Decision made, she dug through her purse for Hassieâs phone number. Funny, she mused as she reached for the telephone, sheâd somehow known when she left Buffalo Valley that she was destined to return. She just hadnât realized it would be this soon.
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