Free Finding Ashlynn by Zoe Lynne

say yes. Please say yes. Understand why I can’t have sex with you. Please.
    “Of course I do,” Ash said as she dropped her pants in the middle of the floor. She stood there mostly naked, pale skin and bright red underwear with matching bra, talking as if it were no big deal. “Honestly, I respect you because of it. I just….” She climbed into the sleep pants one foot at a time, then grabbed her shirt from the floor and pulled it over her head. “I really want to be with you. Ya know?”
    “Boy, do I,” Jenna said.
    “I can wait until the time is right,” Ash continued as though she hadn’t heard what Jenna said. “Waiting will make it special.” She bent over and picked Jenna’s shirt up from the floor on her way back to the bed. “Waiting will make it more meaningful.” Ash guided Jenna’s arms upward, then pulled the shirt down over her body. “And that’s what I want from this… something special and something meaningful.”

Chapter Thirteen
     
    All those sweet, perfect words Ash said to Jenna, she meant every single one of them, but those flowery words didn’t do a damn thing for the feelings she had. No, she wanted Jenna in the worst possible way, even though she honestly had no clue how she would do the deed once they got to that point, if they got to that point. The only sex she’d ever had had been with a guy, and he’d done all the work. So while she played her silly seductive game and pretended to know what she was doing, she felt so lost and scared on the inside, probably just as scared as Jenna.
    She watched as Jenna pulled her jeans down and kicked them across the room, watched as the girl who knew how to take her breath away climbed into the sleep pants Ash had handed her, watched as those beautiful thighs and colorful panties disappeared from her sight. Then Ash watched as that same intelligent, intoxicating girl climbed into bed and curled around her pillow, just like she had the first night they’d been together.
    Ash wanted to be her pillow.
    Ash wanted to feel Jenna snuggle against her.
    Ash wanted….
    “You look like you’re deep in thought,” Jenna said, derailing that train fast. “Is everything okay? I mean, this wasn’t disappointing to you, was it?”
    With a soft smile, Ash climbed into the bed beside her and curled toward Jenna, sharing the edge of her pillow. She was close enough to smell Jenna’s flowery perfume, close enough to hear the subtle sound of her breathing, close enough to kiss those wonderfully soft lips.
    Ash swallowed. “No, I’m not disappointed. I mean, I am, but I’m not.” She frowned. “Does that even make any sense?”
    “Yeah,” Jenna said with a hint of laughter. “It makes perfect sense.”
    “Don’t feel pressured, ’kay? Don’t take my disappointment as a bad thing. It’s not, I swear. I just… wanna be with you, ya know? So don’t, like… freak or whatever. I’m here and I don’t want anyone else.” God, the rambling again.
    Jenna didn’t respond, not with words, anyway. She only smiled and rolled a bit closer, curling against Ash’s chest. Her dark eyes met Ash’s stare for the briefest moment before her lids fluttered and her long brown lashes licked against her cheek. She looked so tired, and Ash couldn’t blame her. Jenna must’ve had a hell of a day after the way Ash had hung up on her last night.
    “Tomorrow,” Jenna said, “will you stay and have breakfast with my parents?”
    “If you want me to, sure.”
    “I want you to.”
    “Will you come to see my band practice?”
    “Absolutely. I would love to see you play.”
    “So it’s a date, then?”
    “Yeah, it’s a date,” Jenna said with wide grin.
    Ash kissed her forehead and hugged her tight. She said, “Get some sleep. You need it.”
    But Jenna’s eyes were closed before those words left Ash’s lips. Ash listened to Jenna’s breathing, watched the way her chest rose and fell, and Ash couldn’t have been happier to be there, holding such