Meg leaving, then the dog. If the past forty-eight hours were any indicationof what this school year was going to be like, I was really in for it. And yet there was nothing I could do. I couldnât move away, or stop going to school, or get out of any of it. I was stuck.
âThat was really nice of you to stay with him,â she said quietly. âMost people, they wouldnât have done that. They would have just kept walking.â
I opened my eyes, surprised at this revelation. âMost people are horrible.â
âNo doubt.â
âI canât stop thinking about it. He was this cute little Lab . . . just a puppy. He was runningâyou know, the way puppies run. All enthusiasm, not even looking. And then that stupid car came out of nowhere and . . . He had no idea that the day would end like that, that his life would end like . . .â
âBut you were there with him, Tara. He was lucky to have you sit with him those last few minutes of his life.â
âWhy do people keep saying that? He was all alone.â
âThatâs not what Nick said. He said that you sat there in the middle of the street for close to an hour. That when the ASPCA came, they told you to leave, but you wouldnât till they had euthanized the poor thing.â
âIt was heartbreaking . . . the way his big eyes kept looking at me like they were asking me to help him, begging me to take away the pain. He could barely breathe. He just . . . he wanted to die,â I told her. âIâve never . . . thatâs never happened to me. I donât have any pets; Iâve never watched someone or something die.â I closed my eyes, trying to pull it together. I couldnât believe it was Veronica, of all people, whom I wasrevealing everything to. I was rarely this open with people. Not even with Meg.
I thought sheâd jet out of the hallway as quickly as possible, make a run for it while she still could. Smile that false smile of hers and tell me her family was waiting, but instead, she continued to linger in the hallway with me, her head leaning against the wall.
âLook, all Iâm saying is, you were there, not like that horrible Sarah, who just zipped off in her Porsche. And I think Nick was glad that you were. You were so thoughtful. Youâre a sensitive one, I can tell.â
I had barely spoken ten words to Veronica in the five years I had known her. She thought I was sensitive? And yet when I looked at her now lingering in the hallway, I had to wonder if in another world, in another dimension, we might be friends.
âSeriously traumatic first day of school. Listen, come by and say hi to my parents. They heard what happened. I think theyâd want to see you. And . . . thereâs a party at Halleâs on Saturday. You should come,â she said before she walked away.
When my father came out of the kitchen, he wanted to know why I looked like I had been crying. âIs it about Schrödingerâs cat?â he asked. I shook my head. I was still sad, but some of the sadness had left me, and I felt oddly grateful to Veronica. But after I said hello to her parents and her younger brother, after Amit nodded goodbye to my dad, promising heâd close up, after we had loaded my bike into the back of the car and merged onto the Post Road, I had to wonder about a fire drill,a tiny dog, Nick Osterman in his Jeep, Veronica in my fatherâs restaurant . . . was this what my mother meant when she talked about the fluttering of wings, the migratory patterns of small creatures? A series of eventsâlarge and smallâthat seemed to be creating a new path for me, too fast for me to understand how or why.
NINE
I T reminded me of the âspot the differenceâ game we used to play as kids, the one in the back of
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magazine. Two images side by side, and you circled the things that