Free Feeling the Moment by P. J. Belden Page A

apartment. There’s nothing that neighborhood can throw at me that I haven’t seen before or been through. I’m not afraid to live there, just afraid to lose the first of my belongings.”
    “I’ll gladly come by your house to help you feel more secure there.” He reaches up and tenderly touches my face. “I don’t want anything happening to you.” Leaning down, River takes my mouth with his.
    Lowering me back onto my towel, he rolled on top of me as he deepened the kiss. Just as I thought I was going to get another taste of this man, he rolls off me. Sitting up on my elbows, I look down at him.
    “Beach day,” he panted.
    “Screw beach day,” I said as I stripped off my bikini top, tossing it up on shore.
    My bottoms quickly followed and I quickly straddled him. He stared up at me with lust in his eyes. The intensity in his eyes had my breathing increasing and my heart racing.
    “You sure you still want beach day?” I asked as I grinded my hips into him and played with my nipples.
    River reached up with his hands and I anticipated him going to my breasts, but instead cupped my neck and pulled me down to him.
    Our mouths brushing lightly over the other’s, he whispered, “I want whatever is going to make you happy. You’re happiness means a lot to me.”
    Groaning as he lifted his hips into me, I breathed, “Then take me right here, right now, like there’s no tomorrow. Ravage me, River.”
    Seconds later, he pulled himself free, slamming into me. The fact that he still wanted me so bad, even after knowing the kind of person I was, made me feel lighter. Things seemed less dark.
    We made love and I forgot everything. Every time we made love was better than the last. River knew what he was doing and knew how to make sure I felt good.
    “Oh fuck me,” I moaned without meaning too.
    “Shit,” he groaned and his thrusts picked up. “That’s sexy.”
    Soon we were both falling over the edge together. Collapsing onto his chest, our breathing erratic. The best feeling in the world was feeling his arms wrap around me and hold me tightly against him. It was more than feeling wanted. I felt needed.
    “Best beach day ever,” I mumbled.
    River started laughing. His laughter rumbled beneath my cheek and shook my body. River’s laugh was contagious. Soon I found myself laughing with him. Pulling ourselves together, we dress and look back out over the water.
    “So what would you like to do for your beach day?”
    Thinking for a minute, “Oooo, can we build those sand castles now?”
    He laughed as he got to his feet. “I haven’t built one since I was a kid, but we’ll see if I still remember how.” He smiled down at me as he extended his hand to help me stand.
    We walked down to the beach. River wouldn’t let go of my hand. If I were honest, I didn’t want him to let go of my hand, of me. For the first time, I felt like I was part of something, like I meant something to someone and that feeling hasn’t been there for me in a very long time.
    “We need to be here,” he said as he walked us down to where the water lapped across our feet.
    “Won’t the tide ruin it?”
    “We aren’t building it in the water. Just before it so that it will fill our moat around the castle, but not harm the castle itself.”
    “Hmm, okay. If you say so. What do we need to do first?”
    “Well we need to search for any items we want on the castle. Things like shells, sticks, and so on.”
    “Man a sandcastle is technical, isn’t it?” I joked.
    “Come on,” River laughed.
    As we walked along the beach, River wrapped his arm around my waist and held me close to him. At that moment, I didn’t care about the castle anymore. Walking along the beach like this with River was more of a dream come true than making a damn sand castle.  This vacation was becoming far more than I ever thought it would be. It was yet to be seen if my life was going to continue on this uphill change.
    After a while, we started looking for