he asked.
âDaniel, I canât do this. Itâs not fair to you. Iâour first kiss will have to be our last. Iâm sorry. . . .â She turned and skated quickly from his grasp before she could change her mind, then gained the bank on the far side of the field. She stumbled into the snow, and Sarah caught her arm.
âClara, what is it? Why are you crying?â
âCrying? Iâm not.â But then she reached to feel the tears that were quickly changing to ice on her cheeks. âIâSarah, can we just geh inside? Iâm rather tired.â
âOf course,â Sarah said in a bewildered tone.
All Clara wanted was to get away from the ice and the haunting emerald eyes that she knew followed her through the firelit nacht .
C HAPTER 11
D aniel was too deeply asleep, worn out with grief over Claraâs words, to try to wake from the dream he was having.
An angel with wings like ice stood near his bed, speaking to him. Iâm crazy like Da, he heard himself say and the angel laughed, a crystalline sound that penetrated his soul and reverberated like the strike of an ax against a tree.
âNo, youâre not crazy . . . merely in love. Deeply in love.â
âWhat can I do?â he cried out. âShe wonât have me.â
âShe wonât have herselfâthe truth of herself and what she really feels. You canât give up. You cannot. . . .â The icy wings pulsed with rainbow-like colors and Daniel turned in his sleep, breaking the dream.
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Clara settled between the comfortable pile of quilts and crisp sheets with a faint sigh. It was long after midnight, and she and Sarah had put the last touches on restoring the kitchen to order while Edward had gotten the kinner ready for bed.
âOooh, this is like auld times, isnât it?â Sarah yawned from her place in the big bed.
â Jah, â Clara said quietly, unable to truly think of much more than the shine of Danielâs eyes.
âWhat happened with you and Daniel tonight on the ice?â
âNothing, really. I told him that I wasnât interested inâwell, pursuing a relationship.â
Sarah gave a delicate groan of frustration. âBut, Clara, why?â
Because of Seth and because Iâm scared and because . . .
âBecause what if thereâs another tree?â
âAnother tree?â Sarah asked, puzzled.
âLike the one that killed Seth. Another tree or an illness or an accident, then what?â
âClara.â Her sisterâs voice was gentle. âYou canât live and be afraid constantly. Loving someone is always a risk, and thereâs the potential for pain, yes. But love is worth it.â
âIâI donât know that.â
Sarah cuddled closer to give her a hug. âBut you will, sweet sister. You will.â
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â Gott says, âBehold, I make all things new.â â
Daniel tried to focus as Bishop Umble expounded upon the message the following morning. In truth, though, it was difficult to do anything more than think of Clara, who was sitting with the other widows somewhere behind him.
Bishop Umbleâs voice carried across the expanse of the Troyersâ snug barn and Daniel felt himself caught by the wise auld manâs words.
âHow does Gott make something new out of something old? Or unwanted? Or unloved?â
Unbidden, Daniel found himself having to blink back tears. How I wish I could take back that hasty proposal of two years ago and spend the time wooing her . . . . Why didnât I think? But maybe, Gott can even make that time new again. . . . Give me a second chance. . . .
â Gott is the Gott of second chances,â Bishop Umble said. âHe takes what we think is a mess in our lives and cleans it upâmakes it new. Remember that today.â
Daniel closed his eyes and prayed, longing for the truth of Gott âs newness in both his and Claraâs lives.
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