nobody else on earth knows. And youâre the Empress. Just like the card in my deck. One day, youâll control all things that root or bloom.â
Iâd been barely listening, dreaming about the ice cream sheâd promised me.
Empress? Was that why I loved plants so much? Was that why they sighed to be near me? Both Death and the cryptic boy had called me Empress as well.
How insane all of this sounded! What was more likely? Plants moving on command? Or a teenage girlâwith a history of mental illnessâexperiencing a delusion?
I slowed my steps, doubts arising. Hadnât I had nightmares about the red witch controlling plants, hurting them? Was all this connected in my overwrought brain?
Maybe none of this was real. Maybe I was getting worse because Gran had spread her crazy to meâand I wasnât fighting hard enough for the life I desperately wanted back.
Evie, do you understand why you must reject your grandmotherâs teachings . . . ?
I gazed at the stalks swaying. I could be hallucinatingâright at this moment.
I turned toward the house in a daze. On the front porch, I readied to face my mother. Easier said than done.
Mom really could be fierce. A regular Frau Badass. Which was great in some instances, such as when sheâd taken over the farm from Gran and grown it into the parishâs largest in less than a decade.
Not so great in othersâsuch as when sheâd resolved to get me well.
At the front door, I took thirty seconds to compose myself. I need to learn how to whistle. My roommate at the center had taught me that trick. Parents never suspected their children were unhappy/delusional/high when the kid was whistling. Their minds just couldnât reconcile it.
As I slipped inside, I puckered my lips, blowing soundless air. Whistling sucked.
I heard my mom on the phone in the kitchen. Was she upset? I froze. She had to be talking to Gran. Every now and then, my grandmother managed to elude the orderlies and ring home.
âI will fight this tooth and nail. Donât you dare try to contact her!â Mom said, then paused for long moments. âYou wonât convince me of this!â Silence. âJustlisten to yourself! You hurt my little girlâthere is no forgiveness! Cry all you like, this number will be changed tomorrow!â
When she hung up, I joined her in the kitchen. âGran?â
Mom smoothed her hair. âIt was.â
I opened my mouth to ask how she was doing, but Mom said, âAnything youâd like to tell me, Evangeline Greene?â
I hated it when she asked me that. I liked that question as much as I liked self-incrimination.
Where to begin?
Grades, schmades, bitches, think Iâll just flunk this year. For the first time in months, Iâve been having delusions. Or else I can make plants do tricks. Canât decide which scenario Iâm hoping for. Iâm tempted to play my V card defensively, just to get this gorgeous, usually wonderful senior to backâthe hellâoff.
Instead, I told her, âUm, no?â
âYou havenât spoken to your grandmother?â
âNot at all.â Not since I was a little girl, and Mom had dispatched her to a home on the Outer Banks of North Carolina. Or at least, the court had, in a plea deal.
I remembered Mom had once tried to reassure me, calling it â the place to send relatives with dementia.â Iâd gaped in horror.
Even if Gran had managed to call my cell phone, I would never have answered. My own release from CLC was conditional on two things: medication compliance and zero communication with her.
Iâd agreed to both. Readily. By the end of my stay at CLC, my deprogramming had worked; Iâd been convinced that Gran was merely disturbed.
Instead of prophetic.
Now I was questioning everything. âI havenât spoken to her in eight years.â
Mom relaxed a shade. âSheâs a very sick woman,