first time in years?
Annie. Annie. Annabelle. Anna hell . I stomp into my room and pull all the clothes out of my closet, throwing them behind me, until I find the perfect strapless black dress. Itâd probably be more accurate to call it a dressless black strap. I laugh.
I wish Annie could have heard that joke.
Sharp red stilettos. I donât know why I need the sharp ones, but theyâre right for tonight. I canât do my hair one-handed; itâs falling in waves down my back. Twist a strand back from my face. Dark eye makeup to better match my Cameron Underhill ID. Cameron is twenty-two.
Iâm twenty-two tonight.
The only thing ruining the effect is the bandage on my left arm (it joins my other faint scars), but nothing to be done there. Shot is shot is shot. No room for a knife in this dress. I lean back and ponder. Donât need one tonight.
I slink down the hall into the main room.
James is standing by the window, the sun now set, his beautiful, strong, all-American-boy face creased and pinched. âWe need to be more careful. This type of work isnât good for her. It risks everything Iâve built up the last two years. Why donât we have her back on stocks and trading and espionage? Sheâs perfect there. Thisââ he pauses, only for a second but I know his dad will see the weakness there ââassassination work messes her up. She wonât be useful for months in this state of mind.â
Oh, useful. I wonât be useful . Heaven forbid. If they only knew what their pet had done. A pause, where I can only guess what the elder Keane is saying. Iâve never met him. None of the girls from the school ever have. I tap tap tap. Tap tap tap. I need to get out of here.
I grab my purse from the counter by the door, take off my heels, and hook them around my wrist.
âYes, sir. I understand.â Jamesâs dad canât see the way his jaw tightens, the way every muscle in his body traces a line of anger and barely controlled rebellion. He is never more beautiful to me than when he is livid. But still James does as James is told. Good boy, James. Have another treat. Sit, James. Roll over. Play dead. Kill. Thereâs a good son!
âGoing out,â I call, and he whips around in time to see me blow a kiss before I slam the door shut and sprint down the stairs, past the bewildered doorman, and out of the building. I canât run away. But I can run.
And I can dance.
ANNIE WANTS ME TO MOVE BACK IN TO HER ROOM .
She doesnât understand. I canât. I canât live with her because I canât tell her, and if I live with her, sheâll know, sheâll figure it out. Sheâs worried about me.
She has no idea.
I am a murderer.
That day on the beach. I am trapped in that day on the beach. I take the small package. It fits in the palm of my hand. I focus on getting it in the womanâs bag without being seen. Itâs easy. I know exactly what to do. No one notices a thing out of place, as the gangly teenage girl chases her ball past with a determined look.
No one connects her to the explosion that kills two people three minutes later.
Her. Me. Her. Me. I did that.
âPlease choose, Sofia.â Clarice is sitting in front of me, calm and placid. She is always calmâI want to claw her eyes out sometimes. On the table between us are five boxes wrapped in plain brown paper. Five boxes. Two people. One explosion. Two murderers in this room.
I canât leave now, not ever. Iâd get caught. Theyâd know. Theyâd know it was me. I canât tell anyone what this school really is because then Iâd have to tell them what I did.
âWho cares. Theyâre all boxes. Why does it matter which box I choose?â
âWe need to test the limits. Can you make the correct choices on instinct only when you understand what is going on, or can your intuitive senses help you make the correct choices even when you