They
I remember the house
where I first lived, it was
small and wooden
and next door to a loud
friendly catholic family
whose three sons Andy
and something and something
else constantly with mysterious
lack of effort flicked
an orange basketball
through a rusty hoop
and one afternoon taught
me
duh.
Once
a car screeched and hit
a girl whose name
I just remembered Julia!
We werenât there
but came running out,
it was quiet and we stood
a little away from the man
from the car who stood
over her, there was
a dark spot on her leg,
it was broken, she was fine.
But they decided to limit
the danger by making
the street one way
with a speed limit of 30.
Who were they?
Since then they have been
here looking over
my shoulder, sometimes
taking care, at others
making the wrong decisions
leading to more bad things.
Thereâs no way
to talk about it
except maybe right now.
Now when I look
at photographs of me
and the twins I hear
the green glass beads
separating my bedroom
from theirs clicking in my mind,
is that a memory? Or
what I know those
sorts of beads sound like
in a breeze? Every day
one block up to Connecticut Ave.
and over to Oyster
Bilingual where I sometimes
was asked to stand
in front of the class and hold
up the picture of a duck
or a house when the teacher
said the words in Spanish
and English both. I played
Santa in the Christmas play
which made sense.
One day Luis stabbed
another kid with a pencil
in the throat, he was also fine.
Another day I went to visit
a friendly girl and ran
straight through the plate glass
window in her apartment building
lobby and out the door
and home, my parents
never knew, I was as I would
now say unscathed. Soon
after we moved to Maryland
where the new Catholics
were threatened and mean,
but thatâs a different story
I donât yet remember.
I think once a parent dies
the absence in the mind
where new impressions would
have gone is clear, a kind
of space or vacuum related memories
pour into, which is good.
Looking Up
from a book I was reading about
a dead architect I saw not the fabulous
empty pale blue almost white desert
sky above the brand new sewage
treatment plant. Nor my handwriting
in which I had thankfully never written
with a huge glowing made of fire
finger stellar advertisements for starlight
in the sky. Just a few artificial contrails
made by jets on their way to Denver
for me with my eyes to follow,
fading like the thought that had made
me raise my face to catch them
at all. Now only the pure white drug
interdiction blimp tethered to a bristling
radar installation remains, scanning
the sixty or so miles between here
and the border for movement dispositive
of a human trying to survive. Goodbye
Robert Creeley, you died looking out
over the plains. No more will
your fractured days emerge for us
to live a little while in, though we have
your collected poems of which
there are many. And farewell Kenneth
Koch, whom I also never met.
Reading his kaleidoscopes causes me
to wonder if perhaps he is not
a lawn chair, knocked over last night
by a pack of javelina that scared
Richard awake and made him wander
to his table, still half asleep. Or
a blue telephone, waiting in the forest
to ring. This book you are holding
is about dying, as will be the next one
upon which you lay your hands.
Thank you for listening. Now let us
all go separately into the city and forget
everything but our little prescriptions.
April Snow
Today in El Paso all the planes are asleep on the runway. The world
is in a delay. All the political consultants drinking whiskey keep
their heads down, lifting them only to look at the beautiful scarred
waitress who wears typewriter keys as a necklace. They jingle
when she brings them drinks. Outside the giant plate glass windows
the planes are completely covered in snow, it piles up on the wings.
I feel like a mountain of cell phone