and baseball players out of mud and nailsâand if Leo and the others cannot see what Iâm doing, then that just shows that, as with Gloomy Gus, their lives are too narrow and segmented.
âHow, after all youâve been through, Meyer,â Leo once asked me, âcan you fuck around making these goddamn emptyheaded palookas?â
âItâs social realism,â Simon said, defending me, and Leo laughed, thinking Simon was making a joke. But Simonâs too dense for humor; I supposed he was thinking of all those muscular Soviet posters (though in that respect, the Fascists are even better social realists than the Soviets). Either way, he was wrong about it. True, I believe in social realism, after a fashion, but I donât think you can know it before you start. True dialectic means letting your own work teach you as you go along. Art as process, as Dewey says, as interaction, shared celebration. You have to expose yourself before the world will show itself to you: a truth from the Torah.
I often get criticized by my friends for the athletes I make (and Leoâs right in a way: my welding techniques often use suggestion more than solid matter, so the heads are often, quite literally, empty). They argue that professional American sports reflect the sickness of American society: the exploitation of players, manipulation of followers, the brutality and competitiveness of the game, the record-keeping mania and personality cults, even the hokum reenactment and reinforcement of the rags-to-riches mythology. Bigtime football especially enrages them. They hate the raw, naked aggression, the implicit imperialism in the battle for yardage, the dehumanizing uniforms and training schedules, the lionization of the bully, and the celebration of violence as a way of discovering the self.
âIt stinks!â Harry has barked, getting emotional. âA shandeh, Meyer! A game of Fascists!â
âOr feudalists,â I once offered in reply. âKing Quarterback and his knights in the backfield getting all the glory, the peasant serfs up on the line taking all the punishmentâ¦â
âRight! Fâkucken Cossacks!â
âNo wonder the gameâs full of goddamn Irish Catholics,â Leo said. âEither theyâre employed as cops heating up working stiffs, fighting for the Fascists in Spain, stealing us blind down at City Hall, or playing football for fucking Notre Dame!â Weâve all been down on Irish Catholics of late, though one of our best friends isâor wasâa socialist priest named Clanahan who used to live and drink over on Larrabee; we havenât seen him since the war broke out in Spain: had he been horrified by the Republican massacre of priests and nuns and returned to the fold, or has he, as rumored, joined the Basque Resistance in Bilbao? (Now collapsing under the weight of the Fascistsâ superior arms, sad to say, yet another piece of todayâs dismaying news mosaic.) Leo himself might once have been a Catholic for all we know, depending on whether his real name is Leopold, Leonardo, León, Leonid, or Leonides, all of whichâand moreâIâve known him to use at one time or another.
âShit, the silly ball donât even bounce straight!â Jesse put in. âItâs a insult to common sense!â
âGood point!â Leo laughed. âBunch of damn perverts!â
âFâkucken nihilists!â
Oddly, nobody ever complains about the jugglers and dancers, which belong to the same set of images: bodies in motion, for me the central thing about life. I donât miss the dead gods and vanished mysteries; motion is all the magic I need. And these figures of mine are real sentient bodies at full stretchâI donât like amoebic or inanimate shapes, I like something that knows itself and tests itself. The first print I ever owned was one of Remingtonâs âWestern Types.â Remington is popular