Free Hesitant Heart by Morticia Knight

going to enjoy one another quite a bit.”
    “I made a mess.”
    “I think it’s wonderful. In the future, we will work on your self-control, but what you just did was spectacular.”
    It was still difficult to follow everything that Aaron spoke of, but Sam knew that Aaron would teach him everything. And he wanted to be taught very, very much. As Aaron continued to consider him, one other thing nagged at him. Since Aaron had told him to say everything that was on his mind, Sam resolved that he would. He would never, ever want to disappoint Aaron.
    “Will you kiss me?”
    Aaron’s smile widened. “Of course I will, little Sam. But let’s get you cleaned up first, shall we? I want you to be comfortable for your first kiss.”
    Sam nodded eagerly, sitting up and moving off Aaron’s lap. He was shown into the large bathroom next to Aaron’s bedroom. He hoped it would be his bedroom too, but they hadn’t really talked about that yet. The bathroom was very modern, much more so than the ones back at his father’s Victorian mansion.
    There were white hexagonal tiles on the floor, with large square ones that rose up on the walls, stopping right about where Sam’s chin was. A porcelain lip edged the top and right below it was a black line detailing it the circumference of the entire room. He’d never seen a separate cubicle for a shower with an etched glass door before. It was right next to the curved bottom tub that was set in the floor. The one he’d used at home had been on legs that had feet like an animal’s. Inside the shower were steel pipes that ran up the side and were attached to a large steel circle above. When Aaron turned on the spigots, water came out of small holes in the circle like a heavy mist.
    “Come on, little Sam. Let’s get you out of those wet clothes. I’ll bring in your other ones.” Aaron frowned. “We’ll have to do some shopping this week for more.”
    Sam was about to protest until he remembered how he was supposed to let Aaron take care of him, make all the decisions. As he unbuttoned his shirt, he experienced a wave of shyness. Aaron had let him use the washroom alone that morning at the hotel. But if they were going to do sex things, he would have to take off his clothes. And, of course, he’d seen Aaron nude many times. As he pondered it, he realized that he’d seen Aaron more with his clothes off than with them on.
    “Don’t hide your body from me. Have I ever hidden mine from you?” Aaron didn’t appear upset at all. He had that same twinkle in his eye that Sam loved.
    “Okay.”
    He finished unbuttoning his shirt then removed the rest of his clothing. He held them in a pile in front of him, unable to meet Aaron’s eyes. He’d never been completely naked in front of anyone before, with the exception of his mother. But that had stopped when he’d been about eleven or twelve—when he’d started to grow hair on his private parts.
    “You’re still hiding, Sam.”
    He almost chewed his lip. Almost. Aaron had his arms outstretched, obviously wanting Sam to give him the clothes. Relinquishing the bundle to Aaron, he waited while he put them in a straw basket next to the door. When Aaron turned to gaze at his exposed body, he couldn’t stop the trembling.
    “Cold?”
    Sam shook his head. The radiator that Aaron had turned on when they’d first entered had kept the room at a comfortable temperature.
    “Frightened?”
    “N-no…”
    “Tell me.”
    “I’m embarrassed.”
    Aaron arched his eyebrows. “You’ve never been naked in front of anyone, have you?”
    “No. Not since I grew hair on my man parts.”
    Aaron’s lip quirked. “I see. Another thing I’d like to do with you is expand your vocabulary a bit. But that can be done as we move along. You have a beautiful body, Sam. I like it very much.” He motioned to the shower. “Come on. Let’s get you washed up.”
    Sam grinned. Things kept getting better. Aaron opened the glass door that had begun to steam up