havenât found the right person because the right person doesnât exist. You want to be happy, forget the big, pink abstractions. Find someone whose daily presence is not intolerable to you.â
âDo you put that on your anniversary cards?â asked the man she was with. â To my husband, whose daily presence is not intolerable to me .â Tom was this personâs name. He was a photo editor with whom she had slept during a festival in Los Angeles three weeks before. The specifics of their tussle were lost to Cora, whoâd been close to quadriplegia from negronis. But the experience left in her memory traces of something exciting. So now she was sitting in a dark saloon in the meat-packing district with Tomâs thin knee between her thighs. Downstairs was the neighbourhoodâs last establishment that still packed meat. The room smelled authentically of blood.
âIs he an artist?â
âHeâs a non-depleting human presence. Itâs a talent they should give MacArthurs for. He doesnât argue for the pleasure of it. I like the way his breath smells. We laugh at the same things, and I am never lonely. The only issues, and I actually think they are relatively minor, are that Iâm not in love with him, and Iâm not especially interested in having sex with him ever again.â
Tomâs tongue was now scouting Coraâs molars. His stiff thumb toured her breast.
Outside, a blue static of falling snow haloed the streetlamps. A serious storm was in the works. Haste in Tomâs bed would be necessary if she wanted to find a taxi home.
âHow about we get out of here?â Cora said. She took her phone from her pocket to check the time. The phone, she saw, was on an open call to her husband. It had been that way for forty-six minutes. Cora hung it up.
âIâm very sorry,â she said to Tom. âI have to go.â
Cora left him on the corner. When she was out of earshot, she called her husband, whose name was Rodney. The phone had been in the deepest pocket of her thick, wool coat. The bar had been a poultry house of background noise. It was reasonable to suppose that her husband had not heard a thing.
âHey there,â Rodney said with perfect affability. âHow was your night?â
âRife with jargon and profane young women.â Cora was a photographer. A launch party for a fashion magazine was where she had professed to be. âBut a big, dumb paycheck may come out of it somewhere down the line. Anyway, Iâm getting in a cab now. Do we need anything from the world?â
âI just ate our last ginger snap.â
âGinger snaps: check,â said Cora. Relief warmed her thorax. She could not get home soon enough. âAnything else?â
âActually, yeah,â said Rodney. âWho was that guy you were talking to?â
Abasements were made. A divorce was proposed and rejected. In the weeks after the telephone call, fits of tearful self-recrimination seized Cora at restaurants, in the grocery store, in the small hours of the night.
Through all of this, Rodney was impossibly forgiving. He was not only her absolver but a spirited attorney for Coraâs defence. âOf course, it sucks and itâs painful, but strictly speaking, I canât really say you did anything wrong, when weâre down to what, about three IOOs a year.â The acronym came from Rodneyâs computer work. It stood for input/output operation, a piece of householdvocabulary that, in its transition into standard usage, had ceased to be waggish and become merely apt.
âAnyway,â Rodney went on, âwe did say that if either of us wanted to be extracurricular, we would talk about it and deal with it. You just happen to have acted first.â
Cora could not recall having had that conversation. She wondered, with a touch of vertigo, whether Rodney was making it up. âBut I didnât tell you,â she said.
Xara X. Piper;Xanakas Vaughn