twenty-five. Even though his right hand was resting back lightly on the handle of his gun, he seemed more amused than anything.
âYou canât park here,â he said, a smirk on his face. His partner came around to my side and stared at us through the window.
âSorry,â Aidan said, âweâll leave now.â
âI could take you in ⦠or get your names,â he shook his head, âbut Iâm a nice guy, so consider this a warning. If I see you here again, Iâll take you in.â They walked back to their car and turned off their lights. It gave us the time we needed.
âShit,â Aidan said, buckling his belt. âWho the hell thoughtââ
ââWe didnât,â I said, turning away. Hot tears filled my eyes. I stared out the window so he couldnât see. Why was I crying like a baby? I buttoned my blouse and straightened my skirt, then wiped my eyes. If he noticed, he didnât say anything. He started the car and pulled away slowly. Through the rearview mirror, I saw their headlights go on. They drove away after we did.
âWhat do you want to do now?â
I let out the breath I didnât know I was holding. âGo home, what do you think?â
He lifted his hands off the wheel, holding them out helplessly. âSo now youâre mad at me?â
âIâm tired, Aidan.â But I was mad. Or scared. Or something. Everything felt like it was his fault, or at least I wanted it to be.
Chapter 10
RIVER
The people in the car next to us are eating hamburgers. I think back to the two times that Briggs took the team out for steak dinners. It was always quid pro quo with him. You scored, you won, the beast fed you. And they werenât just dinners, they were over the top, like everything Briggs did.
We went to the most expensive restaurants in town, all of us dressed up like goons in jackets and ties, even though it was nearly a hundred degrees outside. We ordered up everything on the damn menu, starting with those towers of cold seafood, then lettuce wedges with blue cheese dressing, Caesar salads, rib eyes, filet mignons, onion rings, baked potatoes, and fries. Briggs must have spent half a yearâs salary on each dinner, but I doubt he cared. He probably didnât have anything else to do with his money anyway. No wife, as far as any of us knew. No anyone. He was alone. Always alone. I couldnât imagine him having friends. Who the hell would choose to hang out with him? I donât think he ever cracked a smile or laughed, unless it was in a derogatory way, to crush someone.
I remember those dinners because despite the food, I never forgot that bite by bite, I was entering into an implied bargain. The meal was a payoff for the games we played, but it was also our promise to continue to win. And if we didnât? Heâd demand his pound of flesh. There was no such thing as a free meal, especially when Briggs was footing the bill.
JILLIAN
Sometimes I can still glimpse the River I used to know, before he changed 180 degrees. The one who wrote a play that he absentmindedly left on a desk in the drama room because he hoped to join the drama club, not realizing that snoopy me would pick it up and read it. I canât forget the title: Hypocrite .
Iâm haunted by whatever happened to him. I watch his face, his expressions. Thereâs so much anger and frustration inside him now. Heâs going to bolt from the car, I know it. Thereâs no way heâll stay here.
The question is what do I do? Can I trust him? How can I know if heâs right?
I text my mom.
River thinks weâll never get to Austin. Harlan thinks traffic will start moving. What to do?
Stay with Harlan
, she answers, almost instantaneously.
You wonât get anywhere on foot. Youâre in a car, and you have food and water. Listen to him.
Before I can blink, my phone rings.
âWhat the hell are you thinking, J?â
My mom must