along to us. Watch, listen, and then act, they told us. This is the way to live.
âWatch the animals to see how they care for their young. Watch the elders to see how they behave. Watch the white man to see what he wants. Always watch first, with a still heart and mind, then you will learn. When you have watched enough, then you can act.â
There was a silence.
âThatâs quite a bit different from our way,â I volunteered, hoping to prod him into further conversation.
âYes,â he said. âWith you it is just the opposite. You learn by talking. You reward the kids who talk the most in school. At your parties everyone is trying to talk. In your work you are always having meetings where everyone interrupts everyone else and everyone talks five, ten, or a hundred times. You say it is working out a problem. To us it just sounds like a bunch of people saying anything that comes into their heads and then trying to make what they say come around to something that makes sense.
âIndians have known this for a long time. We like to use it on you. We know that when you are in a room and it is quiet you get nervous. You have to fill the space with sound.So you talk right away, before you even know what you are going to say.
âOur elders told us this was the best way to deal with white people. Be silent until they get nervous, then they will start talking. They will keep talking, and if you stay silent, they will say too much. Then you will be able to see into their hearts and know what they really mean. Then you will know what to do.â
âI imagine it works,â I said. I knew full well it did; my students had used the same trick on me, and it had taken me months to catch on.
âIt works, all right,â the old man said. âBut it causes problems, too. I remember as a little boy in school. When the teacher would call on me I would sometimes want to think about my answer. She would get nervous and tap her ruler on the desk. Then sheâd get angry at me and ask me if maybe I didnât hear her or if the cat got my tongue.
âHow was I supposed to think up my answer when I could see her getting upset and nervous and knew that the longer I waited the worse it would be? Iâd end up saying one word or, âI donât know.â Iâd say anything to get her away from me. Pretty soon they said I was stupid.
âI remember one teacher telling me I needed to learn how to think. She really didnât care about my thinking. She just wanted me to talk. She thought talking meant thinking. She was never going to be happy unless I started talking the second she called on me. And the longer I talked, the happier she would be. It didnât even matter what I said. I was just supposed to talk.
âI wouldnât do it. I thought it was disrespectful to talk when I didnât have anything to say. They said I was a bad student and that I was dumb.
âNow I see the same thing happening to my little greatgrandchildren. Their teachers say they donât pay attention because they donât look at the teacherâs eyes all the time and they say they arenât very smart because they donât talk all the time.
âI know what they are really doing. They donât look at the teacherâs eyes because they are trying to form their thoughts. They are just being respectful in the way we teach them, because for us it is respect to keep your eyes down when someone more important is talking. If the teachers would give them time to form their thoughts and let them do it inside their own minds, they would see that my great grandchildren are very smart. But the teachers donât think like us. They want everyone connected to everyone else by words and looks. They donât like silence and they donât like empty space.â
âLike the pioneers didnât like the empty space of the land,â I said.
Dan brightened perceptibly. âExactly!