and pan in the kitchen, even piles of rags, to catch the water sluicing down the walls, dripping from cracks in the ceiling. Yanking the sofa and armchair away from the seeping walls, Carrie thought that it was just as well that Daniel had taken a lot of the furniture. In the morning she ripped the heavy water-soaked curtains from the living-room windows, sending the curtain hooks pinging across the bare wood floor, and bundled the curtains into the trash. She was glad to strip the house, toss ruined rugs, empty the mantel of her collection of Talavera pottery, survey the water stains on the walls as if they were destructionâs bold scrawl, writ large.
For two weeks she and Anya have been stepping over the bowls and pots and pans on the floor, curling together in Carrieâs bed, the only place in the house that stays dry when it rains. The landlord has cleared away the fallen tree but made excuses about repairing the roof and the front steps, claiming that every roofing contractor he calls is busy because of all the rain this winter. Hehas left the house in disrepair for years, hoping to force Carrie out so he can jack up the rent.
When Foster brings Anya home on Sunday night, he climbs in the window after herâthey canât use the front steps. Carrie has spent the day in her robe, left her hair in a tangled spill down her back. She wasnât expecting him to come in with Anya.
Foster lifts a corner of the drop cloth sheâs thrown over the furniture huddled in the middle of the room. âYouâve got to snap out of this,â he says.
He is perfectly confident, as Carrie is, that the damage is her doing. Anya must report to her father and stepmother when she spends the weekend with them: Momâs not cooking, sheâs living on candy bars, sheâs not sleeping. Carrie can live with Foster thinking she is crazy. But her eyes cross at the thought of another lecture from him on the needs of a teenager.
Carrie shrugs. âI canât help this mess.â
âYouâre wallowing in it,â Foster says. âThereâll be someone else soon enough.â
âDad,â Anya scolds automatically.
Should Carrie be flattered or dismayed at Fosterâs expectation? Sheâs been thinking that there wonât be another someone for a while. When she split up with Foster twelve years ago, she was so certain of what she was leaving him for. Yes, she was going to fall in love, desperately, pursue her dream of working as an artist, live in a neighborhood that offered noise and struggle, not hushed, propertied order. Sheâs had one adventure after another since she left Foster, scrabbling together waitressing jobs until she found the job at the frame shop, falling in and out of love so many times, fighting the landlord because if she had to pay higher rent, she couldnât afford to sublet studio space two days a week.
âYou should move out,â Foster says.
âThe roofer is supposed to come next week,â Carrie says.
âThatâs what you said last weekend.â
She gives him a look. But Foster persists. âI know a good handyman. I could get him in here to fix those front steps for youââ
âWe like going in and out the window,â Carrie says. âAnya just calls for me when she gets home from school. âRapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your hair.ââ
âLook, my daughter has to live here,â Foster says.
âDonât put me in the middle,â Anya says. But her voice has an impish lilt; she likes to best them at the game of being a grown-up.
âOh, Foster,â Carrie says. âWill you just relax? After the roofer gets here, Iâll paint the walls. Weâll just be so shipshape and middle class you wonât know us.â
Anya comes into the bedroom and tugs open the curtains. The sudden light makes Carrie feel as if her pupils are made of chips of glass, refracting and distorting what she sees: