after wearing my crown, either. I wanted to savor the good feelings Iâd had with the others that evening, and I was afraid if I slept, the feelings would be gone when I awoke.
I went to sleep last night knowing that this feeling that all was well for me would not last until the morning, either.
I have no doubt we will find Carlyâs cat. In fact, the cat is probably curled up in front of the massive door to Carlyâs house even as we speak, meowing for the maid to bring her breakfast on a silver tray. Once that happensâand Becca gets the acceptance letter sheâs expecting and Lizabett performs in her balletâI will be the only one who will not have met my goal.
The solution of last night will not work in the cold light of morning today.
I know Quinn will see to it that I get my three dates if thatâs what I want. And thatâs nice of him. But I have to acknowledge that theyâre not real dates. Heâs just so used to taking care of Lizabett that hisgoodness overflows to me a little. I hate to meet my goal like thatâwith âpity dates.â
The only thing for me to do is to actually get some real dates from a guy who doesnât feel obligated to ask me out. Of course, I donât know anyone who might be a prospect for a date like that unless Becca is right and the grill guy does remember me.
Actually, I hope he doesnât recall me too well. Maybe he will remember that he liked me enough to ask me out without remembering that I turned him down.
Yes, that would work.
I fluff up my hair and snip off a few rough edges before I pull out my old curling iron from the back of my closet. Iâm not sure the iron will work, but the red light goes on, so it must. While I wait for the curling iron to heat, I put on some makeupâI actually found some eye shadow in a drawer by the bathroom sink.
Itâs ten oâclock in the morning when I get back to The Pews. Thatâs my usual time to check in for work. Uncle Lou is the one who opens up the diner at six oâclock in the morning and handles the breakfast crowd.
Iâve always thought that Uncle Lou likes those four hours best of all the hours in the day because, at least in the first hour or so, heâs alone in the diner and can remember the way things used to be. He plays old fifties music on the radio and Iâve noticedhe puts the old salt and pepper shakers out for breakfast. Heâs muttered more than once that heâs glad breakfast stays the same and hasnât gone all trendy on him. I havenât had the heart to tell him that some restaurants are adding cream cheese to their scrambled eggs and turkey sausage to their selections of meats.
Anyway, I have to park my car in a big, concrete parking structure a few blocks away from The Pews and walk to the diner. Since I have eyeliner on, I feel better about everything. Itâs a good morning for a walk. It is winter in Pasadena and the morning is bright and sunny. We get a lot of days like this in February. Itâs weather to make a person glad they are alive.
In the strong light of day like this, I feel ready for anything. On the way to the diner, I make my decision; I will find some real dates and let Quinn off the hook. Not that I wonât still go to church with him, but Iâll do that for a different reason.
As long as Iâm doing things the right way, itâs time I stopped being so superstitious about going to church. Thatâs really what it is. Iâm afraid that if I go to church once, Dad will somehow know and think Iâve gone over to Momâs side. And, if that doesnât happen, Iâm nervous that Mom will know and start to hope Iâll become a Christian.
But nothing will automatically happen just because I go to church. The roof will not cave in and the sky will not collapse. There is no bad luck thatwill automatically come to me. Neither one of my parents will even know Iâve been to church