Free Codex Alera 06 - First Lord's Fury by Jim Butcher

said.
    “Don’t be an idiot,” his friend replied, his voice tired. “You’re to be the First Lord of Alera. You’ve got to lead a nation filled with powerful Citizens with mutually conflicting interests. If you can’t build up enough support to accomplish that leadership, a lot of people are going to suffer because of it. You’ll try to send relief to a Count’s holding that’s been devastated by a flood but find that it’s been blocked by the Senate, or maybe choked off somewhere in the communications or financial chain. You’ll issue rulings in disputes between Lords and High Lords which they bring to you and find out that both sides were setting you up to look bad, regardless of what you did—and eventually, because that would be the point of the whole thing, someone will try to take the crown away from you.”
    Tavi rubbed at his chin, studying Max. His friend’s words were . . . not what he’d really expected of him. Max had a fantastic instinct for analyzing tactical and strategic situations, a gift that his training at the Academy had sharpened and honed—but this kind of thinking was out of character for his old friend.
    Tavi inhaled deeply, understanding. “Kitai came to you to talk about it.”
    “Couple of weeks ago,” Max said.
    Tavi shook his head. “Bloody crows.”
    “I don’t know if it will work,” Max said. “Making your courtship a semi-public event, I mean.”
    “Do you think it might?”
    Max shrugged. “I think it will give the people who do support you a way to counter anyone who tries to start using Kitai to drum up some opposition. If you’ve courted her with the same consideration that would be expected of a young Aleran lady highly placed in the Citizenry, it lends her a certain amount of status by association.” He frowned. “And besides . . .”
    Tavi sensed his friend’s sudden reluctance to speak. He shook his head, feeling a smile tug wearily at the corners of his mouth. “Max,” he said quietly, “just say it.”
    “Bloody crows, Calderon.” Maximus sighed. “I’m the one who treats girls like disposable pleasures. You’ve always been the smart one. The capable one. The one who went to every class and studied and did well. You’re the one coming up with ways to use furycraft that no one’s ever dreamed of before, and you can barely use it. You’ve gone up against Canim and Marat and vord queens alike, and you’re still in one piece.” He met Tavi’s eyes, and said, “I know that you don’t think of Kitai the way I thought of my lovers. She’s not a playmate. You see her as your equal. Your ally.”
    Tavi nodded, and murmured, “Yes.”
    Max shrugged and dropped his eyes. “Maybe she deserves some romance, too, Calderon. Maybe it wouldn’t hurt you to go out of your way to make her feel special. Not because she can fight, or because she’s practically a princepsa of her own people. But just because you want to show her. You want her to know how much you care.”
    Tavi stared at Max for a moment and felt somewhat thunderstruck.
    Max was right.
    He and Kitai had been together for a very long time. They had shared everything with one another. Whenever she had been gone, it had left an enormous, restless hole somewhere inside him that adamantly refused to be filled. So many things had happened to them together—but he hadn’t ever really spoken to her about the depth of his feelings. She’d known, of course, just as he had been able to sense her devotion to him through the odd link the two of them shared.
    But some things needed to be said before they could be truly real.
    And some things couldn’t be said. They had to be done.
    Bloody crows. He’d never asked her what the marriage customs of her people were. He’d never even thought to ask.
    “Crows,” Tavi said, calmly. “I . . . Max, I think you have a point.”
    Max spread his hands. “Yeah. Sorry.”
    “All right,” Tavi said. “Then . . . I suppose that while I’m finding a way