doesnât know,â said Uncle Ramon. âThis isnât the time for her to find out. Sheâs very emotional and talkative. That could hurt us.â
âI wasnât going to tell her. Iâm not that stupid or mean,â I said as Uncle Ramon loosened his grip.
A moment later, Lola picked up the cell weâd shared.
âListen, Mamaâs not answering her phone at work. I need you to go down to El Puente and let her know Iâm trying to call.â
Lola pitched a fit and I waded through every one of her complaints.
âI know youâre studying, that itâs hot outside. But I need to speak to Mama. Do this for me. Please. What? No, itâs not about me becoming a Nacional,â I told her. âI just may be away longer than I expected, to train some more. I need her permission. Itâs important. When? All right, but as fast as you can. Listen, I donât say it enough, but youâre a great sister, much smarter than Iâll ever be. Okay. Thank you.â
As I closed my hand around the phone, Uncle Ramon nodded his head to me, and I took it as an apology. Then I turned toward Luis. I hadnât noticed it before, but I could see the growing panic in his eyes. Luis said he wanted to go for a walk on the beach, just to âstretch his legs.â I decided to go with him.
âSure. Walk. Relax. Just stay within our sight,â said Gabriel, who seemed calm as could be. âThe four of us shouldnât get separated for any reason. Weâll discuss this more when you get back.â
When we got out of earshot, walking along the waterâs edge, Luis said, âJulio, you know that I can barely swim, right? I should have practiced my whole life for this.â
âDonât worry,â I said. âThereâll be at least one life preserver on Gabrielâs boat. If Iâm there with you, itâs yours. I promise.â
âWhat would we even do in the US?â
âI canât put myself in that situation yet. But
youâll
escape the Moyanos on this island. Iâm sure.â
âYou have to come. Iâd be lost without you,â Luis said.
âYouâre stronger than you know. Iâve seen it,â I said, kicking the broken seashells at my feet.
âI keep thinking of that photo. The one I left in our dorm room,â said Luis. âIf we leave, I wonât have a single picture of my mother. Iâd give a hundred pesos to have it with me right now.â
âYou still have your memories.â
âBut I have to close my eyes to see her that way.â
âSometimes thatâs better,â I said. âThen your memories can never change.â
âMaybe your mama and sister will bring me a photo, the day they leave Cuba.â
âYeah, maybe,â I said, squeezing the phone tighter inside my hand.
Thatâs when I started thinking that if I did go, Iâd most likely never see Mama and Lola again. That theyâd become images in my mind. The same way Aunt Blanca had become for Luis and Uncle Ramon.
Luis stopped us about fifteen yards from those two girls reading. They were probably twenty years old. But that didnât discourage Luis from running a hand back through his jet-black hair.
âWho knows what could happen tonight. A big wave might drown me,â he said. âIâm going over there. Turn on the charm, see where it gets me. You coming?â
âNot worth the effort,â I answered. âEither way, weâll never see those two again.â
âThatâs the point. Iâve got nothing to lose,â he said, walking off toward their blankets.
The sun was sinking in the sky. Maybe it was down half a thumbâs worth since Iâd last noticed. Everything else in my life seemed to suddenly stop. It was like I was alone on my own island, waiting for a sign to move in some direction. And hanging over that ocean in front of me was Papiâs