shadow.
I didnât know what I wanted or where I belonged. I just knew that Iâd had enoughâsix long years of trying to make sense of an empty feeling.
After a few minutes, Luis came back flashing a strip of paper with a phone number on it.
âI told them there was going to be a party after we won the tournament tomorrow. That Iâd personally get them invited,â he said, leading me back in the direction weâd come. âAnd that you were too shy to talk to them. They thought that was cute.â
âWhat are you going to do with the number?â
âMaybe put it in a bottle, like a note. Throw it overboard from Gabrielâs boat.â
âWhy did you even bother talking to them, then?â
âThink of the story. Two girls waiting for me to call. Then they find out Iâm either in the US or in prison or dead,â said Luis.
âSomething to tell their friends?â I asked.
âBigger. It could become famous, like a folktale.â
Suddenly, the phone inside my hand began to vibrate. It felt like an earthquake starting in my palm and spreading through my entire body. I flipped open the phone and it stopped. But I could still feel a rumbling in the pit of my stomach, shaking me to the core.
âWho is this? I donât know this number,â Mama said in a defensive voice.
âMama, itâs me. Iâm in Cárdenas, on a borrowed phone,â I answered, with Luisâs eyes glued to mine. âDidnât Lola tell you?â
âNo, I took a break at work and saw the missed call. Is everything all right?â
âMama, Iâm on the beach, with Luis and Uncle Ramon, and someone else. They say that itâs time. Time toââ
â
Shhh.
Donât speak it,â she interrupted. âDo what you need to do, Julio. This is
your
life. Live it.â
âMama, I donâtââ
âJulio, you
need
to go. Find what youâre searching for.â
âAre you sure?â
âWait, I see Lola coming.â
âMama?â
âJulio, make your decision and know that I love you. Iâll always love you, no matter what.â
âI love you, too, Mama,â I said, before I heard Lolaâs out-of-breath voice and then the connection cut off.
âSo?â asked Luis nervously, as I closed the phone.
âI guess those girls are going to have some story to tell about meeting
us
.â
âYes!â exclaimed Luis, throwing both arms around me and hugging me tight. âBut remember, you were too shy to talk to them.â
The rest of the way back, I walked on the damp, hard-packed sand closest to the water. I didnât want the ground shifting beneath my feet. At some point, I saw the tracks weâd left behind heading toward us. I stopped for a second to look down at them. It was a strange feeling, like suddenly being present in my past. Then I picked my head up and kept right on walking into my future.
When we reached camp I handed Gabriel his cell phone.
âA journey like this makes people familyâthatâs what you said,â I told him. âWell, Iâve already got an uncle and cousin here. But Iâll give you a chance to earn your way in.â
âI accept that,â said Gabriel, reaching out to shake my hand. âI canât ask for anything more.â
âNo one can. Thatâs the highest bar there is,â said Uncle Ramon, who looked as if a huge weight had just been lifted off him.
âThereâs still lots to talk about and little time,â said Gabriel, glancing at the sun.
âBefore any more talk, letâs pray,â said Luis.
Nobody argued with that. We all knelt in a tight circle, bowing our heads, even me and Uncle Ramon.
10
OVER THE NEXT half hour or so, we each downed two sixteen-ounce bottles of water to hydrate ourselves for the trip. Gabriel couldnât say exactly how long weâd be at sea. Instead, he was